not feeling good

[Owlunar]

Hi @BlueBay

You will be okay Bay - you are a wonderful person and you have survived all of this

As I have - and if I could hold you close - I would -

Your mother does not have the capacity to love - I would say if your siblilngs were honest - and perhaps like TS they are warped  and cannot be honest - you mother has damaged them - none of you get out unscarrrd -

But love that little baby all alone in a hospital - imagine picking her up and cuddling her

And had you died - there are three people already living in the world and another one on the way who would not be here had you died - and they are all worthy of life and your love of them - and for you to be proud of them

One son at the Police Acadamy, another finishing his degree this year - the girl pregnant with your first grandchild - that is brillilant - the sun shone on those kids when they have you as their mother

And - to replace the unloved baby in the hospital 51 years ago - love the new baby coming this year and pour your love into the new life - and be with your daughter and be the person your mother never could be

But -  don't hate your mother - she is suffering and will suffer more - as mine did - instead - hate her behaviour - she can't help who and what she is but she can help her behaviour

This attitude as helped me - I can see how damaged she was - and that was not her fault - but the way she treated me - yeah - that was her choice

Lots of really big bear hugs - If I could find a bear I would post it several times so you could get your bear hugs -  maybe I can find one - you never know

Dec

[utopia]

@BlueBay. I had to go pick up my son - so was away for a few hours.
You WILL be okay. This is temporary. You CAN move past this.
Breathe my friend. It will pass.
You are stronger than you think. You are loved and liked by many.
YOU DESERVE GOOD THINGS.
LOVE YOURSELF - simply breathe

[Owlunar]

Hi @BlueBay

I went and search teddy bears - and I could not find the one I wanted this quickly - but I got this one - and I hope it comes us - It's the best hug I can give on-line

Ah - that worked - when I have more time I will try and find the one I was looking for - in the mean time - hug my teddy bear

All the best -

Dec

[Owlunar]

@Faith-and-Hope

I didn't know how to boil water that way - no

And of course it would take ages but it would work if we didn't have a frying pan or a kettle or whatever

But what makes me grate my teeth is the thought of all that ash in my dinner - or the tea they keep drinking

I love those books and I have read them all several times but I admit there are parts I flick right over - I won't say what parts

[BlueBay]

whenever i read your replies to me @Owlunar I cry because I know that you truly understand.

maybe i don't hate my mum, after all she is my mum.  but i so hate her behaviour and how she treated me over the past 7 yrs.  i just wanted a close relationship with her, i wanted and so needed her support and love which i never got.  and that hurts so much.

i fell asleep before it is cold here today.  so much for summer although i don't like it when it's too hot.  it is quite windy too.

i should do so many things today, but i can't move.  i hate being here on y own.  i thought i would like it but not today. 😞

having a really crap day, teary and all.

[BlueBay]

thank you @Owlunar for the beauitful teddy bear.  I am hugging him right now. xxoo

[Former-Member]

Sending you a teddy hug too @BlueBay, feel for you xox

[BlueBay]

At the beach thinking

[Former-Member]

Hi @Former-Member@Owlunar@utopia@Zoe7

Beautiful friends of Blue Bay! I have been conversing with BB via email and she wanted me to tell you she is doing ok, attending to her self care and will be offline for the rest of today.

She has been thinking about her new grandchild who will be arriving in some months and is looking forward to being a amazing Nonna 🙂

best wishes,

Frog

[Zoe7]

Thanks for letting us know @Former-Member 

@BlueBay