not feeling good

[BlueBay]

Hey @utopia@Owlunar

It was very cloudy here this morning too and I thought it was going to rain - but oh no the sun is out now and is warming up.

OK, the last of the washing is almost done.  I will put it out and that's it.  i am going to lay down for a little while.

I know you're right @utopia I don't know how to relax, i always feel guilty when things aren't done around the house. You know it's so nice that the boys haven't been home (although i do miss them) because their rooms are so nice and clean and have stayed that way for 10 days.  Even the kitchen has been tidy.

But they come back this Monday which is good.  Then it starts with youngest going to Uni for last year and other son going into police acedemy.  Then it's just daughter and OMG bubba.  I have been making her laugh and calling her 'mumma bear'.  

Going with her to the doctors on monday for check up. i know she wants me their all the time.  

You know I remember quite a few times when I asked my mum to come with me to appts and she would always find a stupid excuse and not come.  It made me really sad.  So i am not going to do that to my daughter because i know how it hurts.

My mum is a real bitch!!!   Let's not go there.

OK, off i go to hang sheets out and then i will be off here for a little while.  Back later my dear friends xxoo

[utopia]

@Owlunar. That's a series of books I've been meaning to read. I'll get there this year. Just have to finish the 7 books waiting on my bed side table - waiting to be read. Lol
Yes- I'm glad those days are over. My boy had bad eczema - especially in the nappy region. In the end had to go with disposables. Which I was not a fan of. But it helped him - so was good.
It's the teenage years I'm struggling with now. Lol. Oh god, I remember what I was like. He is a lot nicer and - as far as I know - not doing the things I did at that age. Thank heaven.

[utopia]

@BlueBay. Your daughter will love it that you are going to the doctors appointments with her. It is such a special time. You are a wonderful mum.
Enjoy your lie down.

[Zoe7]

@BlueBay Great to hear from you. Relax a bit as @utopia said. Enjoy your lie down. Chat later xxx

[utopia]

Pot calling the kettle black - today @Zoe7. Go and have a lie down. Both of you @BlueBay.
You two are the same. Rest up for the next hour or two. Nothing to do now.
Love you both.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Love Ayla's adventures @Owlunar .... history-based novels .... learned so much from them.

Didnt realise you could bring water to boil by placing hot stones in it to keep raising the temperature .... Jean M Auel brings it all to life off the page.

Hi everyone .... 😊💕

[BlueBay]

@utopia @Zoe7 LOL

@Zoe7 we are going to have watch 'our cocky friend' she's on to us big time 🙂 LOL

[BlueBay]

Hi @Owlunar

You know I was born a premmie - 10 weeks early.  And in those days (51 yrs ago) it was difficult.  I was born 4ib and had no eyebrows, eyelashes and my dad would have to come and bring the expressed milk to the hospital so the staff could feed me.  My mum wasn't there, she was home with my brother. So much for 'bonding'.

You know when i am 'in my negative horrible state' i feel that i don't deserve the love, support and care from others on here.  I feel that i should just go away and disappear. Sometimes i even feel that i don't deserve this care, love and support and that it's my fault.

I am truly amazed and blessed to be part of this forum. the amount of support love and care for each other is unbelievable.  i have never been on any other forum where there is so much love and respect for each other.

No, i don't love myself, never have and don't even know if i ever will. that's a tough one to work through.

Take care @Owlunar xxxooo

[Zoe7]

@BlueBay We ARE going to have to watch 'our Cocky friend' - Cocky ny name, cocky by nature!!! 

I think she has our measure - bugger - can't get anything passed her!!!

[utopia]

This little Cocky just woke from a sleep @Zoe7 @BlueBay.