Life can be a Pain

[Owlunar]

Hi @Former-Member@utopia@outlander@Shaz51@Adge@Faith-and-Hope

I haven't been in for a few days - crazy reason - I wonder if there is a mozz on my right leg actually

On Tuesday - the day after the long walk I took - I woke up aware of bladder pressure - I think I went back to sleep but got out of bed and my leg was asleep and I feel and have either a strain or a sprain and the bruise is coming out now and it is starting to feel better

In my life I have fractured my right foot, had surgery to take care of a bunion, this is the third time I have sprained this ankle, had three arthroscopies on my right knee, had bursitis in my right hip recently - and how can this happen to one leg? - when my kids were young I fell onto a sharp rock when we were bushworking and I remember Nurse Little 3 yo daughter dabbing  while I fixed it up with my sewing kit - 

Seeing as it's getting better I feel okay about talking about it now but for a couple of days I felt really tense - as if it was too much to mention and of course I know it is not - but I have been really testing the waters with my right leg lately

I saw my therapist on Wednesday - wow - having a person who is not just doing a job but incredibly interested in my life with a toxic sister has been wonderful - I don't get depressed now - just anxious and edgy at times - 

And I went for a short walk to the beach while I was in the area - lovely day for that then but today we have a storm coming in - it's very humid in Melbourne atm and cloudy and heavy and it feels as if we are all holding the sky up right now - but I think when we get rain it will be easier

btw - bit by bit and I getting the vines in my courtyard cleared up and clipped and cleared up and swept up - I seem to make more mess while I am going but it is worth it

I hope everyone is okay - thinking of you all heaps and hope I will get in touch today - 

I  wonder if I can find my best Saturday picture

I really have too many pics saved - so Have a Great Saturday if possible peeps

Dec

[Shaz51]

hello @Owlunar

have been really thinking of you this week

it has been raining here all week long here , slept in until 8am this morning --wow

the sun was shinning but it has gone cloudy again

Mr shaz`z knne has started playing up bad time , thinks it might pop out one day

[Owlunar]

Thanks  for your thoughts @Shaz51 - they are really appreciated

About Mr Shaz's knee - aw I know how painful knees can get and they are really complex joints - actually the most complicated joint in our body and it takes most of our weight every step - 

So I hear Mr Shaz

btw - seriously - I mean this - why does he think it might pop out one day? It's well protected itself - 4 bones, 4 tendons, 4 ligaments - yet arthritis and tears in the menisci and cartilage are painful and knees can get stiff - I am thinking maybe his patella tendon is wearing thin - but please ask him - I am really interested

I'm glad you got to sleep in - I didn't - I got up about 5.30 am and put a movie on but I didn't get back to sleep - instead I have prepared crumbed cutlets for two days, made home-made cookies - got a salad ready and I just remembered I got some Quinoa yesterday to try - I don't like potatoes much - feel like trying something different - and I went up to the shops and paid my power bill - and now we have a bit of rain here and there

The sky was clear early though and the waning moon is just a little crescent - the sky was full of planets and stars before morning twilight and the moon was there too - great morning

All the best Shaz and poor old Mr Shaz's knee - I get it - I understand

DecYeah - I get it Mr Shaz

[Shaz51]

@Owlunar

My FIL had very bad knees and they were bowed when he was in his eigty`s , he would never have surgery done to them  and then they could not do it because of his heart

and Mr shaz says his knees are going the same way , the knee crackes sometimes and catching him when he is doing things

his patella tendon is wearing thin -- he does not know but got a appt tomorrow to get the results of his suncancers which were shaved off during the week , so try to get him to talk about his knees

[utopia]

Oh @Owlunar. Not what you needed - a strain or sprain. Glad it's starting to improve.
Please look after yourself

[Owlunar]

Hi @Shaz51

I am sorry about Mr Shaz's - I know how knees can hurt - ouch - can I ever - esp if I have to get up off the floor - 

And - oh darn - I got a signal that the battery in my computer was getting low and had to stand up with the computer in my hands and there is stuff I left on the floor - it was actually a neat pile until I kicked it out of the way with my feet

Anyhow - I don't think you are going to have an easy time with Mr Shaz's knees whatever happens - it hurts to have surgery and people - including me - will put it off and I get it

But I feel for you so much too - I remember not long before my marriage ended for good - my ex-h had a bad cold and sat looking miserable in his chair and moaned gently whenever I went past the door

Eventually I said - "I don't wanna know until you have taken something for that headache - that's what people do - until you take a pill for it - shaddup!!!!!"

"Can you make me a cup of tea then?" 

I hate making tea because it stains the cups but I made one and put a couple of tablets on the table beside him and walked past the door a couple of times hearing that gentle moan and then saw the tea and the tablets had not been touched and through the tea all over him and walked out 

Maybe I am not the carer-type of person but after that little confession - I do care about people's suffering - I also think there is so much that people can do to help themselves

btw - after all these years I believe my ex had depression - 

But then Mr Shaz's knees a worse than a cold with a bad headache - I hope he can deal with it okay - I know he gets really anxious and these knees will not make it any easier

All the best Shaz - you are an angel truly

Dec

[Owlunar]

Hi @utopia

I could have lived a long time without spraining my ankle - it feels a lot better tonight - and the bruise is really colourful - and the swelling is interesting - I heal fast - I will be okay in a few days

But you are right - I didn't need it - it seems I have had a lot of extra pain through the last few months

@Shaz51@Former-Member@outlander@Adge@Faith-and-Hope@utopia

Anyway - my Dad would have had his 98th birthday yesterday - he died 7 years ago just before his 91st birthday - I bought a card and a stamp and I guess that have become keepsakes since then

I miss the old man - I am so much like him that I don't have to go far to know what he would be most likely thinking about whatever I am thinking about - I might have been the chip off the old block but now I think I am the old block

I have been putting off going to bed but I think it might be time about now

Dec

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hugs @Owlunar 💜

[Owlunar]

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope

I went to bed and went to sleep straight away last night and slept right through - wonderful - I only woke up when the guy next door started working in his garage - but seeing as he makes toys for charity I don't mind that

It was a rather weird day yesterday - really - I didn't think that much about Dad's birthday but yes - these things do affect us

Still thinking about your difficulties with WH and I think I may have missed something about a dx - I am wondering if there has been a change and this has had run-on effects for the family - including you

Life is a totally complex issue but I am glad personally glad I have a life - but still sending your thoughts and prayers

Dec 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Not yet @Owlunar ..... there is a background personality type that has been identified ..... and that personality type appears to be more prone to personality disorder than others ..... and S2 has been dx’d as personality disordered at the moment, but now we’ll into recovery - our interstate shift being considered the major facilitation for that ......

So, it’s a form of progress but no wh dx yet.