Life can be a Pain

[Owlunar]

Ah darn @Faith-and-Hope

More waiting -

All the best

Dec

[Shaz51]

sending you tender hugs @Owlunar 

how is your day today my friend xx

[Owlunar]

Hi @Shaz51

My day is okay and I hope yours is too

I'm thinking about lunch - my appetite has been off a bit this week - maybe a vegemite sandwich - can't go wrong with that - okay - maybe it's too salty for you - but I do love vegemite

All the best Shaz

Dec

[Shaz51]

I love vegemite sandwiches @Owlunar, my cat used to love it too , always had to share my sandwich with her

I don`t eat much of it now

How are you today xx, I am sooooo tired tonight -

[Owlunar]

Hi @Shaz51@Faith-and-Hope@utopia@Former-Member@outlander@Faith-and-Hope@Bubbles3@Adge

I haven't been in lately - I know - I get very introspective when things get rough and find I am not terribly useful and I also tend to keep things to myself during the hard parts - I don't need to but I do

When I fell and sprained my ankle it was bad enough but my back decided to get in on the act and that's when I withdrew feeling as if I had enough to complain about but everything is hopefully settling down for my trip next week

I wrote to my rellies - no answer yet - maybe they are still interstate but I have plenty to do in Hobart for a few days - I am looking forward to it but I haven't had the chance to go shopping for new clothes - luckily I have a pair of trousers and a shirt I haven't worn yet and I can shop in Hobart.

My new therapist is fantastic - she really wants to go into the things that have happened in my past with my mother and sister - and it hurts like the blazes going into the past and I walk out feeling washed out and my knees shake but then it doesn't bother me until the next time I go and talk about it - I think it really helps

Down inside somewhere I feel the deep pain of having my mother physically abuse me when I was young and then emotionally when I was older - with everything that has happened in my life I am really surprised that I managed to get through everything intact but I do remember the dark days when my son was in so much trouble and my parents were so horrible I kept away.

But I did learn something I have known or suspected for some time - there was a programme on mental illness on TV suggesting that when we get older mental illness is easier to heal - less likely to happen - really - I have noticed this myself - my life was just as shattered as anyone's could be back in my earlier years and I had times when I could not see that anything would ever get better

But they did - and I hope this helps other people- and yes - the past still hurts a lot and I am coming up to the bad time of year I always have had when my son was in prison - and then died - but I assure you it does get easier - maybe I run away from it less - I can still have bad days that really bring back memories of the darkness - but the darkness itself is in the past

I think I should start another thread on the subject of getting older and mental illness - I can still get pretty anxious at times but it matters less

Dec

[utopia]

@Owlunar - have an amazing time in Hobart.
Your new psychologist sounds great. So glad you are addressing these issues now. Hopefully it will have a cleansing effect.

[Owlunar]

Hi @utopia

I intend to havef a good time - whatever happens about my rellies I am planning taking a bus up Mount Wellington, taking a cruise on the Derwent and maybe even going to Port Arthur - but then - I have already been there and I got a bad dose of the creeps - enough said - I am not scared of the creeps

I have to catch up with some people - I think you are or have been in hospital Utopia - I hope things are not too bad - whatever too bad is - varies probably - I do think of you

Dec

[Shaz51]

have an amazing time in Hobart. @Owlunar 

 ohhh sorry to hear about your ankle , hope it gets better fast xxx

Your new psychologist sounds great. --- I am Soo glad to hear

should start another thread on the subject of getting older and mental illness -- that is a great idea my friend as My Mr shaz has had a life and a half , and now like you say there is still a lotof ups and downs , but there are changes and i am wondering if it is because of age

[utopia]

Thank you @Owlunar. Yes I'm still in hospital. Another week - or maybe 2.

[Former-Member]

 @Owlunar,

You inspire me, the way you rise up after falls, get help when you need it and keep lovein.

@itopia, hhope hospital helpyou, I didn't realise ❤❤❤