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Hi @Former-Member

I haven't read that - but I know the reference which I think is in the Psalms -

There are several books I want to read - I keep trying to get myself around to going to the pubic library - still have a card - but it's walking distance and still a good walk but I have this new excuse and I am sticking to it - I'm getting older and my legs ache a lot - and my legs used to ache a lot from running but this is different - sigh - but still - I could catch a bus

Keep asking me sis and maybe I will get myself there - life is entirely different without a car - how I wish I had one - or could drive - actually I think my back and knees are too stiff and I have to give that wish away but still - if people sound resigned and say "Can't complain" I tend to say "Why not?" I really do think that a little complaining releases a lot of inner stress and a lot of sorrow about what time can take away and with that done - we can see more clearly what time has given us

I felt uneasy and irritable when my Dr wrote that I had reactive depression on my mental health plan - not just in my history but as if I have it now. Okay - I seemed to spend a lot of time with a heat pack - watching TV and waiting for the back pain to ease off - I asked myself if this was okay with me after having chronic pain for a long long long time - and it is not pleasant at all to have pain but I am used to the condition and orthopaedic issues is the devil I know so - after all the decided I am not depressed.

So I went outside and the sky was full of  stars and the crescent moon was there and the breeze was warm and it was a lovely night - I rejoiced - and realised whatever is causing my stress and headaches is tiring but not unbearable - the toothache was - ooh

Horrible - yes - and I do use that toothpaste the dentist recommends every second day and a high fluoride one the rest of the time - 

The tooth-grinding and the stress has been building up for a long time and acting on finding out what was truly happening and working on family issues is unusal for me because I fell out of the family tree a long time ago and except for my Tassie Rellies I stayed out of it - only seeing people at the frequent family funerals we have had over the last years - always one person less - and so yeah - this has been tough for me

And the headaches - stress related - I have plenty of up-to-date glasses - all slighty different for different light etc - I have a family history of macula degeneration so I get to have medicare visits to the optometrist every year and the last time was recent - but thanks for asking me these things - one never knows what other people are fussy about or neglect and any ideas can be useful

But yes - life is improving - today it's raining buckets - but the air is fresh and clean - after a hot summer then thought of winter is less alarming but it is warm enough today for shorts - 

I hope you are okay - are you posting in the carers forum because I seem to be missing your posts?

Aw - yeah

Dec