Lacking direction, unsure of what I need to do and generally just fed up.......

[MDT]

G'day all
Who is around today?

@Judi9877 @Shaz51 @TAB @Bunniekins @BlueBay @Meowmy  @Appleblossom @frog @eth @Angels333 @Owlunar @Former-Member @Jacques @Former-Member @Maggie @Eve7 @DJMasters @BPDSurvivor @oceangirl @WIP @Schitzo @Emelia8

[Emelia8]

Hi @MDT ... yes I'm around for a little while. But heading off to an oncology appointment in half an hour.

Enjoying some good rain here overnight and just started again.  How are you today buddy?

[Bunniekins]

@Emelia8 @MDT  Hey Em and Hams wishing you both a kind and caring day ahead. Em we also had some rain over night which was beautiful but managed a walk this morning. Love peaxx

[MDT]

Hope the appt goes well @Emelia8
Just did some small errands and got my coffee. A present too for mum.
Got my lunch sorted lol.
Will spend rest of day writing and researching further study options I think. With music on too

[MDT]

Hey pea @Bunniekins
Its always good to see you up and about.
Hope you have a good day.
Errands and also research into further study and writing here today

[Maggie]

@MDT  Hope your day is going ok. 

[MDT]

It is what it is @Maggie

Just been looking at rentals and coming up with an idea to sell to my parents re: sister moving out too as she may be eligible for assistance under NDIS - means we can share and I can be a carer of sorts.

MAy take some convincing but my mum will be the better for it - less stressed and worried. Better for sister too as allows her the room to grow up some more. we are good friends i think my sister and I - we've been through a lot. Maybe it's time to grow up? Idk. An idea of sorts Maggie.

Going to do some reading of Seneca now

Hope you are well

[MDT]

So I went to my friends thing and was a bit uncomfortable. Some of them there have drugs with them - harder stuff
I only know the person hosting it- a friend of mine for some time. I have actually left because I had another thing on elsewhere but I said I would be back. Idk if I will go back. Some people's choices confuse me. Meanwhile I am having the normal type of crisis I have whenever I meet new people - how do I come across and what not. Odd how it only bothered me today. I think of other circumstances where I don't care for that - like the other mob I hang out with where I am headed now. I also remember travelling. Maybe even work?? I don't care much for how I come across - not in a bad way - but in a way where I feel confident and okay with myself and people notice it. Its social anxiety with certain people maybe. Anyway I am listening to a reflective song - French House music. Has a good rhythm and its calming me down a bit and making me nostalgic for the times in life where I feel ok with myself and at peace - well relatively maybe. Its also making me feel

I'll share it here
https://youtu.be/exZ3-cYIz4I

[MDT]

@Judi9877 @Shaz51 @TAB @Bunniekins @BlueBay @Meowmy  @Appleblossom @frog @eth @Angels333 @Owlunar @Former-Member @Jacques @Former-Member @Maggie @Eve7 @DJMasters @BPDSurvivor @oceangirl @WIP @Schitzo @Emelia8

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[Meowmy]

@MDT hey Hamza, take it easy. You will get to places in life where you will feel more comfortable. We are much more insightful than most because of our illness and disadvantages. Enjoy