Lacking direction, unsure of what I need to do and generally just fed up.......

[Jynx]

A rough year indeed @MDT, I'm so sorry. I really hope things shift for you soon - and we are here with you in the meantime

[MDT]

Hoping so @Meowmy
Hoping so my friend

[MDT]

Thanks @Jynx
Yoire very kind to say so 🙂

[Owlunar]

@MDT 

Hi Hamza

Feeling under-valued and drained at work is not the best way to find your feet in the current climate - what you say about the people you work with could be true - young people caught in the current  and the older people staying because it feels safe I guess - it could be why they seem so shallow and bitter

It seems to me that many people get a university degree they don't want and don't need and are disillusioned and worn out early in life - maybe they would have been better off doing an apprenticeship - my daughter finished high school early in Year 12 - and we were happy to start her off in an apprenticeship and she flourished there. We need tradies - many people would be happier I think

Doing something to please other people isn't the way to go - I think you already know that but you are having trouble sorting it out right now but it is wearing you down

Perhaps if you took time off to catch your breath and find your feet you could find a job where writing skills are vital - it is an important skill anyway. And you do write well here - and I am qualified to say that - it comes through how exhausted you are 

I wish you well - I hope your family is supportive - I hope they understand -

Personally I wouldn't be bothered with on-line dating - it could lead to more feelings of exclusion - I had a bit of a look at it when I first got on-line - a long time ago now - I had to ask why so many men were interested in having a date with someone in another country - and now I know that cat-fishing happens - 

You seem like a worthwhile person to me - just jaded with your job draining you - worn thin  by 9.30 am - not the best way to have a good day - 

I really care about you

Dec

[MDT]

@Owlunar its good to see you as always and to read your thoughtful replies

Today I feel a bit better. Gently does it i guess hey.

I agree with all you said.

I am going to try and exercise some more discipline in my thinking and approach to myself. But in a gentle way.

I guess I am also expecting to have a slump at one point soon because that usually happens when 1 or 2 things go a bit pear shaped. So I guess it will reap rewards.

I am hoping to get thay extra week of leave before Christmas meaning I'll have one week left of work. Or 4 shifts after today.

I am going to eat lunch outside in the park as it is a very nice day out today.

Idk what secrets get shared on the other floor and i would rather not worry. Looks like I won't be there for the rest of the year so that's good.

Life is tragic but it's beautiful too.

I was talking to my friend in Warsaw via messenger before and she sent some photos of Old Town where I have good memories. It was nostalgic. A reminder that on the other side of the world there are people trying to make their way in life. It also occurred to me when I was in NYC too.

Yes writing skills - working on that article still and will add to it. I think it may go somewhere. I forgot about the competition I entered over the weekend previously so that want smart... but it wasn't something I valued too much as it was all hypothetical scenarios. I like real life stuff maybe?

Anyway my friend. Better get back to work.

[MDT]

Done

[Judi9877]

Hi @MDT . Just have a quick moment to think about you, my friend. I hope you are okay. Please keep on writing as I enjoy reading what you get up to.

I had a phone appointment with my GP today and I told him I was back writing. He was quite impressed to know that it was how I was dealing with certain things in my life. I find it to be therapeutic and I'm really enjoying it. Is that how you feel about writing? Have you considered journalism if writing is what you like? At least it's a career but it's just an idea of course. I agree with @Owlunar  you do write very well and I'm impressed with your writing skills and talent. Please don't waste it. 

Judi9877

[MDT]

Hey Judi
Good to see you
Thanks for your support and for checking in 🙂

Yes it is enjoyable and therapeutic @Judi9877

I am working on a piece I hope to get submitted to a few online magazines I read. Will see what happens
For the moment though I am playing battlefield

[MDT]

(Xbox game lol)

[MDT]

Thanks @Judi9877
That is very kind.
My day has been average. Ready to go home. Thinking about a lot. Trying my best etc.
When I get home I will chill out