Depression- Really Struggling- may be triggering

[Former-Member]

One day it will just click trust me on that. One day a switch will go off in your brain and you will be like why did I care what that person thought of me. Who are they to judge me. It's hard when you have responsibilities. I also had to care for family from a very young age. It's hard. I though in my teen years put boundaries down into what my limits are in caring for people and how much I will let them have of me. Something you might need to look into.

[Former-Member]

@Zoe7 awww your such a beautiful person, so caring and kind.

ill be whatever you want me to be. i would be so happy and proud if you stood beside me.

your making me cry - not in a bad way.

[Former-Member]

oh @Baileyboy i havent spoken to you in ages ! how have you been? i know youve been coping with alot of things yourself.. i glad ive helped even just a smidge

yes @Zoe7 is my guardian butterfly, she knows what shes talking about and i love her to bit for it

[Baileyboy]

Hating the nights alright @Zoe7. I start stressing around 2pm and by now I'm such a mess that it's hardly worth the effort. Have meds but unless I take a lot and I mean a LOT I grab 10 mins here and there. Makes the days long...

And when you're tired everything is harder...oh well! You really did help me @Zoe7 as did @Former-Member so I look in on you both from time to time.

Have said what I am thinking about tonight on who the hell am I or something like that.  Scared me to write it but see what you think!

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member

i hope one day it will click in too.

i think im slowing creating boundaries, just very very very very slowly just by saying im going out for an hour once a week, no one interupt me. they absolutly hate me for it but i guess i have to do it to keep some sanity.

[Phoenix_Rising]

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@scared01 wrote:

im only living with them temporary, until my mum, her boyfriend and 2 sisters find their own house - currently looking. and when they move out ill be here with my pop as itll make it less travelling around and itll kepp pop company and i can do my caring job better. so until them im kinda stuck @Phoenix_Rising

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Oh I see. Do you know what jumped out at me in that post @Former-Member? The word "temporary." So this is a temporary situation. It is going to pass. It sounds like it super sucks right now and it must feel awful to feel so stuck...but this is TEMPORARY. Oh this is so exciting, this is like the 6784659th time that the theory of "this too shall pass" has been validated.

[Zoe7]

@Former-Member All I want you to be is happy!!!! 

@Baileyboy I'll take a look now 

[Former-Member]

can you retag me in the post @Baileyboy i cant seem to find it and ill take a look also or @Zoe7 if you find it first can you tag me.

@Zoe7 my guardian butterfly

[Former-Member]

i know it temporary but i still have to care for my sisters prob just as much so i dont really know how much the situation will change but yes one day maybe something will change @Phoenix_Rising i just dont know when it will change and i cant see a light for it yet

[Baileyboy]

Sorry @Former-Member my post is called who the hell am I anyway? @Zoe7 found it so it must be thete somewhere. Not to good at the tech stuff in case you hadn't guessed.. der!