New Post: Re: I Re: Living with Ourselves

[Sophia1]

Dear @Former-Member

@I cannot believe that you have upset anyone..

having a good cry will release some of your pent up emotions..

let those tears flow..

I hope that you are snuggled up in bed..

have you a cuddly toy or pet to cuddle up to?

grab anything..pillow..blanket and cuddle it feeling that you are being held..you are being held and are safe..

you are in our arms @Former-Member you too @outlander 

your friends on the forums are holding you...you are not alone...

nothing has changed with your friends..only your feelings at the moment..

they too will pass..

💚💜♥️🐾💐

[Sophia1]

I must try to sleep now

night night all💤😌💚

[outlander]

Goodnight @Sophia1 and thanks for helping me earlier today ❤ sleep well

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Sophia1 & @outlander, I do have a pillow to hug, mostly to support this shoulder bursitis but it does feel good to hug it. Mums dogs are allowed on my bed sometimes, they snuggle. NightNight xox

[Sophia1]

Naxos is the greenest islands of Cyclades Greek Islands

[Sophia1]

Kythira referred to as... the birthplace of the goddess of love... one of the most isolated of greek islands.. situated between the Ioanian and Mediterranean seas...

[Owlunar]

Hi @Former-Member@Sophia1@outlander

I am so happy to find my friends chatting here and being honest with their feelings - I think one of the objects of this forum is to make contacts with people with similar feeling and it gives me a warm feeling knowing you are conversing here

Lapses - you do not upset me - I know you need the reassurance and I understand but I am so hard to upset really - people would have to stamp really hard on my corns and I have recently had them attended to by my new person - a podiatrist - so you are fine

But it is so great to be honest with our feelings. I am "left out" by my sibs too - not a great loss imo - I was left out by my parents too for a long time - I know the feeling of devastation that comes with being left out and when I found the reason - Dad was honest with me eventually and I found someone had lied - so being left out in those circumstances was in one way tragic and in another - great knowing it wasn't my fault - 

But I get it

It seems that each of us - and in the forums many people - are different from other people in their families and this causes all sorts of conflict and the trade off is being ourselves and alone - I choose alone - but this is not easy either

I had a dream about my brother a couple of nights back - strange sad little dream about a truth in our past - and strange - although I have always been sad about it in my dream my brother was more than sad

Yes - I could share my dream

But chat on ladies - we need each other - all of us - we all bring different gifts to the conversational table

Dec

Cooking, coffee and chat - wtg

[Sophia1]

Good morning @Former-Member @Owlunar @outlander@Adge@Maggie@eudemonism 

I am going to paste the details of where I am at from a response I made on another thread...

I want to include you all...

I  do not however have the energy to respond individually to each of you..

I also have to limit my time in sitting at any given time...

Sleep seems to be elusive to most of us at varying times...

my lack of large blocks of sleep is menacing my motivation today...

It is the group meeting that I have been to twice....35 minute drive on the freeway each way...

this morning there are very strong winds and there are often road trains zooming past me during my travels...

My anxiety is high just getting there on a mild day...

I am going to wait and see if the wind drops...

get ready anyway...

Pushing myself to go out is starting to show some positive results within myself...

I am managing to keep the dreaded depression in the background...

I have rambled on about myself...

I do hope that each of you have some time today where you can connect with the environment around you...whether it be the sky..the trees...the plants...the grass...the ocean...a river...a lake...a stream....clouds...birdlife...animal life...

Also a time in the day where you are able to smile at another person whether you know them or not...

I am one of these people who you might pass and I will smile at you....you might think "who was that..don't know her"...

I have done this for a long time and have been greeted with some beautiiful warm smiles in return...often beautiful smiling eyes...it warms my heart...

I have the philosophy that...if I can smile at a person...that might be the only smile they get for the day or even longer...if they don't want to smile back...that is fine too...that part does take time getting used to...I have never had someone insult me or be offensive in return..

Am back to my rambling...I must be feeling a bit better...actually am feeling sad again..

so will leave you all with those thoughts..

you might like to tell me of your experiences...

you might not...

cheers

[Owlunar]

Hi @Sophia1

The most important person we have to live with is ourselves so this is a great post to start the day - so what am I thinking about right now

I am pleased that in this thread several of the people I chat with myself are chatting together and my name is there so I feel part of it - great start

I have on-going issues with the council help I am supposed to get - today I rang my agency and shared some of this and it feels positive - so I miss a shift today and it feels okay - I have things to do before my assisted shopping lady arrives which is soon - but it feels better to be here rather than do the dishes right now

It's windy today - we can get tired of these winds - a couple of years ago my daughter called them equinoxial gales but I thought - "Which equinox?" - but it's sunny right now

And after a week of rather scrappy sleep I slept a long time - waking up from time to time but not after I went to bed - it feels better to have had so much sleep

And I have my trip to Cairns - it's great to think about that

It takes time to respond to everyone individually Sophia so yes - reply to several at once

And I rarely count my blessings out loud - today I have - and I just checked - it's not all that cold out there today

Dec

It's a good start to the day whenthe sun is shining

[outlander]

Morning @Owlunar

Its been quite a while since we last spoke! its good to see you
its interesting the way you speak, i can imagine you being quite humerous offline.
sorry to hear about your dream, i find some of them can be quite upsetting or leave us feeling rather emotional.
How are you going?

Morning @Former-Member @Maggie @Zoe7 and all passing through.


@Sophia1
are you able to get some meds to help you to sleep? lack of sleep is hard and i agree can be so hard to get motivated when tired.

I am proud of you for making these wonderful changes like walking out in your garden and attending groups. i hope the wind dies down, we had strong winds here the other day and made things quite difficult.

when im out and about i often smile and say hi as we walk past or a friendly morning or afternoon. a kind gesture can make the world of difference to someone having a bad day. Like you if i dont get a smile or a response in return thats ok, that isnt my issue to own.