not feeling good

[Faith-and-Hope]

@BlueBay .... 💙🌷

[BlueBay]

I'm struggling. Waiting to see my psychologist in waiting room. I don't want to be here.

[Former-Member]

You need to be there @BlueBay
Sending you lots of love. Im there with you ❤ ❤

[Zoe7]

@BlueBay my wings are very broken but I am still on your shoulder... 

[BlueBay]

Thank you beautiful @Faith-and-Hope.  You know how to cheer someone up 🙂

xxxooo

[BlueBay]

Hi @Zoe7 @Former-Member

I went in to my appt.  For some reason I was very emotional.  After telling her that we sold our house, I started to cry.  it was like a big release of tears.

She explained that selling a home is a big stressful thing for anyone to do; but when i can't regulate my emotoins it is harder.

I told her i am going to get rid of mum's stuff old plates, glasses, cups that she left here.  i don't want them anymore.

we spoke about new house and positive things happening, which did make me smile. but then i would cry again. 

she said to me that this is so good for me; that it is exciting and that i should be happy.  i said to her maybe i dont' deserve to be happy.  she looked and said no let's not worry about what you deserve and don't deserve. let's think of the 'now' the present moment and think of the new kitchen you will have, the house you and hubby will choose to buy on your own without your parents involvement. it's huge.

i now have a migraine, so i may not be on here much today.  i will see how i go tonight.

Pls stay safe my two beautiful munchkins @Zoe7 and @Former-Member.  You both mean a lot to me and i hate seeing you both so broken.  

I am with both of you.  Sending you my love, strength and positiveness 🙂 

[Former-Member]

im glad you went in to your appointment, seems like your doing better now that youve had your release which is good. sorry about the migraine pain in the backside they are but eventually those too will go, hopefully it will be gone for you by tonight @BlueBay

taking this step into abuying a new house is amazing and a agreat achievement well done!

[Shaz51]

Hugs @BlueBay 

hope that migraine goes away very quickly xx

[BlueBay]

Oh my migraine. Need this pain to stop. Taken strong pain.

[BlueBay]

I feel so sick. Migraine is getting worse. I can't eat anything. I'm crying cause I feel crap.