Life can be a Pain

[outlander]

@Owlunar ❤❤

[Former-Member]

• Oh @Owlunar, so nice to see you, i've kissed lol correction - Missed you lately. Not good about the Flu shot reaction - youre officially "in-the-wars"
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• lots on yoyr olate a, 
•  any wonder you've disappeared a bit - you're simply exhausted so be kind with yourself. 
  
  Sorry your daughter is shutting you out of her problems. Its a worry, expecially when ya left guessing. I suspect she's like you - fiercely independent so don't worry too much, and she's not alone. Might i suggest a really nice card in the mail from you, let her know you care, get flowers delivered, give it to God (every little medical detail) and let it go, Not easy! but ya got to, for sanitys sake 🙂
  
  Hey, about your psych charging you $55 for nothing, crap! I really do think your pain spike = sickness. Try of u can to negotiate this with her, perhaps a letter. I don't know what the answer is 'cause they don't like losing am hours pay they can't fill. Whatever happened to therapy over the back fence lol Stay connected here for now Dec. You have lots of support here.
  
  Haha, i was a 'mumda' (mumANDdad) to my kidz most their life too. We've earned the double accolades🔔
  
  With your mum Dec, i think it will help to talk with your mum anyway, tell her exactly how you feel & all the little tjings we jist wanna 'tell mum' I do-it helps. But i believe She hears me 🙂 that Gos allows the comms across time, somehow, and they know. Remember, your mum has entered perfection, all the crappy ways are gone, its the love that stays and her personal spark, so if you can - just talk with the lovely side. Im pleased this is starting to come through with my mum now. Or maybe ya can just light a candle for her.
  
  Sorry i missed you earlier. Thanks for being the only one to 'tag' me today, think everyones sickiof me'lol. I hae been wondering how ya doing xox
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[Former-Member]

@Dec,  @Zoe7 @Adge, @outlander, @utopia, and everyone ❤❤❤

[utopia]

Hello @Former-Member. Hope you've been well.

[Owlunar]

Hi @Former-Member@utopia@outlander@Zoe7@Shaz51@Adge@Shaz51

Hi  - all you great peeps - updating and checking in - still battling but today my blood pressure medication has been okay - it was a bad day with it yesterday - really dizzy - tired - no appetite - but today that has been okay 

And the spinal pain - it feels as if it's winning atm but I have had it a long time and it is case of getting through it

But my daughter is very ill - still in bed and exhaused and not eating much at all - just drinking water - and only communicating by text.

But I sent her a card Lapses - a really pretty card and sent it Express so she would get it today rather than after the weekend and I got a text thanking me and she was very pleased - so that was a good idea - I will send the flowers if she has an operation - I love flowers - and she is a horticulturist - 

I talked to my doctor about her this afternoon - and he said that a ruptured ovarian cyst is a medical emergency - I know that - and the good news - an ovary can be removed by laparoscopy - and he also told me that if the surgeon was going to do a bigger operation then she needs to see a different surgeon - but yeah - how to tell her that - 

So leave it there

I got an invoice from my clinic where my recently sacked pschologist works - my doctor said $55.00 is a very high sum to pay esp when I had cancelled out with a few hours and I didn't just not turn up - in fact he noted I have not missed an appointment with him in over three years - and I go a lot - so yeah - what to do about that

Going back for more sessions is totally out of the question - I will wake up in severe pain again and that kind of day is a write-off from the first breath - so it could happen again - and I am going to write a letter and say this including that with trouble getting onto the blood pressure tablets and that my daughter is so ill I would not have missed an appointment - and remind them I have been in with both knees bandaged and limping in with a sprained ankle and this time I had other really debilitating problems that day but the pain was severe

And a couple of other things - for me this is a principle- I had talked about this when I attended explaining my spinal pain and it seemed to me that ringing first thing in the morning was okay - and they really wanted 48 hours - I think - but even 24 hours warning is impossible - people get sick from all sorts of things and some people might battle their way in with flu or maybe a stomach bug - who wants that?

All this has to be the pits - I don't know how I manage to remain cheerful but I do somehow - but indeed - thank God for Companion Cat - she will listed to me - for as long as she feels like it which can be a long time at times

I have talked to my mother Lapses - and I have stopped - I still think there is a lot of stuff I want to tell her but she had her chance to listen for over 70 years - I have said my Good-byes - which I did not get from her - I have had to move on - I forgave her for my own sake - she would not have seen that she needed it - but she was so unhappy for the last years

So right now I am okay - the pharmacist told me I could have good days or bad days with this medication and my doctor wants to stick with this one for the time being - if he had written my first script he would not have given me that one and he would have started with a lower dose - 

So what is causing me to be so vacant at times - not really myself - I am not sure - but there is background noise as well and I am thinking that last 8 - 9 months it has been interesting and in a way I could do without - if I am having a bad year it is nearly over

So who am I when I am not feeling myself

Sending hugs to you Lapses 

And all you guys - you have been so kind lately

Dec

[Zoe7]

Sending hugs back to you too @Owlunar.

I can't believe they invoiced you for that appointment you had to miss - you were in pain - where is the caring here - totally wrong Dec 

[Shaz51]

helllo my second mum @Owlunar 

I see I am extra special tonight , you tagged me twice

did they increase your blood pressure medication  -- mine is still at 8mg

sending you lot of hugs xoxo

[Owlunar]

Hi @Shaz51 and @Zoe7

I tagged you twice Shax - well there's two owls there and I don't know whether I am Arthur or Martha a lot lately

I am taking a low dose of this medication and it is not being increased while I am so spun out - am I ever - who needs weird medication-side FX - if I stood up and spun around it circle like we did when we were kids - that was fun then

And Zoe - getting an invoice for that missed appointment is bad form - not paying that - I have had a pain flare and it would have been worse if I had gone out - I am sure of that - and I am wondering if the psychologist was told or if she cares - so it might be a principle of the partnership or whatever their system - I am an accountant and know that it's not always worth it to go after a bad debt and this is a bad debt already and I am going to write that letter - I am already practising

This is a matter of principle - and I am a person of principle

Aw - this is the Easter Owl but it will serve right now

Dec

[Zoe7]

I love the easter owl @Owlunar - very cute 

They were not nice to you when you rang to cancel in the first place Dec - I wouldn't be paying it either if I was you - very uncaring and disrespectful of you and your pain also -grrrr!!!!

[Shaz51]

I love the easter owl @Owlunar - very cute-- me too xx