Life can be a Pain

[Owlunar]

Hi @utopia@Adge@Faith-and-Hope@Shaz51@outlander@Former-Member

We had bad weather in Melbourne over the weekend and it really caused me a lot of back pain - it certainly does affect everyone when the barometer falls suddenly and then rises again just to dip - and of wow - was it that I had a lot on last week or what? I don't know but I sure like having so many likes to my message - I think I missed someone

It was Dad's anniversary yesterday and maybe that had something to do with the bad pain but actually I think not - I saw the doctor today and was given an injection for the pain and I have felt better since - and I feel okay tonight - maybe a lot has come to pass and there were three appointments last week - 3 extras - all went well

This afternoon I started to do the jigsaw puzzle of the solar system I was given for Christmas - it's a big one but has big pieces - and it has information about the different planets and moons so this makes it interesting - when I get this finished I am going to have it mounted and framed - 

Also the man came back to fix the roof of my shed - even with the new door it was really damp in there with the heavy rain we had - and there isn't any abestos in the shed roof - but stuff!!!!!!! - we all the storms I have had the tiles on my main roof break and fall into the new gutters and the gutters moved out of place and I was doing some gardening last week and found a large piece of equipment in the vines which I gave back to the guy who came back to fix the gutters and my ceiling is leaking a bit in one corner - I have been getting a lot fixed around here lately - I am really glad I don't own this place 🙂

So yes - it was really good to have the new pain specialist say he wasn't changing anything and seeing a new therapist and waiting now for new glasses - this is all good stuff

And dreams - I like to do dream analysis but mostly I know I have been dreaming but can't remember anything when I wake up - I think our minds do sort stuff out Utopia and Faith - eg - like sorting out a filing system - and sleep is so important

I look at life this way - it's no fun to be anxious or unhappy or to be in pain - we grieve for what we have lost and sometimes for something we never had

But it's normal - just unpleasant

I'm so sorry about this ED and the failure to dx Mr Faith - so frustrating - I know I could ask why he's not just told to get his act about eating together but that won't work - I think about my son having BPD with no one telling me until a psychologist who did post mortem dx for the people who lost family members to suidice - we are so much on the outside with this kind of issue with secrecy and whatever - I feel so much for you - eg - it seems you are the forgotten member in all of this and now D3 is suffering about it

You are such a fine and sensitive person Faith - and this kind of life story is really hard - and I still pray for you - I have a lot of pink flowers in my ground-covering vine atm and I think of you everytime I see it

Dec

[utopia]

@Owlunar - I know dreams are meant to mean something. Our unconscious working out what we need to know. But my dreams don't seem to make any sense to me at all. They are just hauntings. Featuring people from my past. Husbands. Their families. Friends. People from old jobs.
And then there's the ones where I'm at school but haven't read the book or studied. Or I'm at work and I don't know how to do the task. Or what people want me to do.
Or someone comes around but I can't have them come in because the house / yard is a mess because I haven't done the housework.
So they are dreams of all my fears. All the things my negative self talk says to me when I'm awake - my unconscious dreams tell me the same things.
So no idea what I'm meant to learn from them.
Love that the puzzle you got for Christmas is the solar system. My son got one like that years ago - with facts. I helped him do it and guess what - we get to the end and one piece was missing from the middle. Was sooooo frustrating. As I was going to mount the puzzle and hang it on the wall in his room.
Hopefully you won't have that problem.

[outlander]

Hi @Owlunar
Its lovely to hear from you. Id wondered where u got to. The weathers been crazy here too ad with the weather changes eap the cold it tends to make things play up. .im sorry you had back pain it can be horrendous cant it!?
How is your knee going too?

Im glad all if your appointments went good and you seem to like your new pain specialiat as well by the sounds of it?


I love the sound of your puzzle. I know you love the solar system and having it framed and hung uo sounds like a good feature in your house.

I dont do dream analysis. Simple reason is its always my traumas. But some dreams make you go
What the...... that was weird. Its funny our brains and the way they work sometimes.

Anyway i hope todays better for you ❤❤

[Shaz51]

I love the sound of your puzzle. and having it framed and hung uo sounds soo good @Owlunar, one of our customer has done this with his horse puzzles

sending you tender hugs @Owlunar , will be thinking of you this week

[Owlunar]

Hi @Shaz51@outlander@utopia@Adge@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member

Dreams - or nightmares - hauntings - or whatever - it is much harder when there is trauma involved - is gets into an area called revisioning psychology and really hard to talk about here

So sorry - it's really hard to help - but what does happen is normal - ands yes - I have had recurring nightmares and night-terrors in the past - a lot of this has passed in time - I have been very lucky with the people who have helped me across time and growing older is useful too

But now and again I still have a dream now and again - just before waking and very vivid - when my sister seems to be wanting to be friendly and this started after Dad died - and I used to feel in the dream that this was good - but with the passage of time and my sister's narky nature I find I dream it less and don't feel threatened in the dream - just irritated - I seem to know it's a dream and I don't trust it and it's going away

But this probably doesn't help - and why should it - mostly I dream and know I have been and totally forget it - wondering sometimes if the therapy I have had and also having studied something about revisioning psychology helps - I can't tell - but something is working

My jigsaw - yes - I have decided I need a bridge table and I hope to get up to Bunnings tomorrow - there is not enough space on the table I keep my piano keyboard and I need more space - but also - I forget who now but losing one piece of a jigsaw is a frustration - like yes - I have had that happen myself

My hip has been a problem this week - I think I know why - it's because I have been walking properly lately and this is causing the tendons in my hip to be inflamed - I am seeing my doctor this afternoon and I I need something to deal with the inflamation - 

Yes - it's the knee bone's connected to the thigh bone and the thigh bone's connected to the hip bone and dem bones dem bones etc - hear the word of the Lord

So I have had trouble getting to sleep this week and the same thing last night and I took medication around 3.00 am and slept and then - early - I had trouble working out what the noise was and there were guys outside my bedroom window taking the roof off my shed - like about time - and as well as all that they had a loud radio - ah - yeah - I am glad to have my shed repaired and now I can clean it out and use it but being woken up so early after another bad night - I guess it's worth it

I feel okay psychologically but physically I am tattered around the edges - I did have brunch with my daughter and grand-daughter yesterday - that was good - but slept in the afternoon and never feel much like dinner after doing that - but I did have a cheese and beetroot sandwich - 

Enough griping - really my life isn't too bad - I do have my stuff and when I saw the therapist last week I realised how upset some of my stuff is - but day to day it's okay

I just don't like being woken up by loud music and busy men being noisy right outside my bedroom

I could do without that

Thanks my dear friends - I am so glad you are all there

Dec

[Owlunar]

I am thinking of you too @Faith-and-Hope - knowing how tough and confusing life is for you right now too - and that your kids are affected by Mr Faith's cryptic disorder

My prayers as always

Dec

I took a look at something simple right -and found stacks and stacks of pink flowers - here's a few

They are bigger than I thought - I always think of you when I see pink flowers Faith

[Faith-and-Hope]

Thanks @Owlunar ...... 💐💕

[Shaz51]

sending you hugs @Owlunar 

[Owlunar]

Hi @Shaz51@Faith-and-Hope

I went to the doctor this afternoon and I was right - I have been walking properly and I probably have bursistis in my hip - I could go to the trouble of an ultrasound and then an antiinflamatory injection into the bursa 

I am never in a hurry to have these tests - aw - not just likely to be a waste of money for myself it's a waste in the system too - it took me three months to see a surgeon about the mess in my knee

So I will see what it's like next week - I am looking forward to a good night's sleep and not having to hurry in the morning,

Melbourne News - the weather - hot - over the old century - 38 C I heard

I like lying in or rather on my bed at night with the window open qnd feeling the sea breeze and smelling the salty air - this part of summer could last a long time in my book

Back later friends

Dec

[outlander]

Still here for you @Owlunar offerring lots of comforting hugs while your dealing with so many things ❤