Am Not Coping

[Owlunar]

Hi @Zoe7

I hear you - sitting through one still moment and looking at the future can be daunting - neither forward path looks comforting - I know the thoughts myself - busy trying to make the future work and then not too sure if it will

And you are doing all this work without knowing if there is an on-going future in it - it all adds to the stress - I understand

I have been looking at the radar maps of the weather a lot lately - Melbourne has had some attrocious weather - and we are nearly into summer - and this happened last year too so it has been bleak - 

I am not sure how it has been in Southern Tassie Zoe - I would imagine cloudy and cold - we had severe gales with heavy rain and I thought of you often because you don't like the wind

This would not add to serene thoughts - I am sure - but I am thinking of you

My own issues have been rather overwhelming - my daughter will be having surgery the week after next and my grand-daughter is moving back with her parents when her lease runs out - planning to move north - with her plans on-hold while she recovers from her operation - and I had this fantastic conversation with my daughter about how hard it is to move back with our parents when we have moved out and had our own choices in play without having to check on what other people have planned all the time

It went down well - I didn't intend to give advice but she remember how irritiated she was when she moved back in with me after being out on her own 

Life does go on - one day at a time - I think uncertainty of the future is not easy to live with and harder for some depending on our nature and situation

Sending hugs - I found my favourite clip art for hugs has sparkles now - I like it better

everyone gets these hugs todayDec

[Zoe7]

The uncertainty of things is definitely adding to my stress but there is no other way but to try to deal with it. I know it is sdversely affecting my functioning on any level but somehow I need to pull it all together tomorrow and get through it @Owlunar  

The weather here is cold and wet but luckily the wind has eased - we did have a couple of days of strong winds but that was accompanied by rain as well so all in all not nice weather. I think you have had similar weather. The next week isn't supposed to get much better either - some sun thrown in but cooler days and some rain.

I am pleased to hear that your daughter is finally having surgery - I hope it all goes very well for you and her. I can understsnd there is extra stress with your grandaughter moving back in with them slso - not ideal but necessary for that added support right now. I hope they can all look after each other over the coming weeks.

Sending you hugs as well Dec 

[Owlunar]

Hi @Zoe7

I don't think uncertainty sits well with any of us - in the past I have been through those patches when I didn't think I would manage financially - and now I wonder about full pensioners - how anyone is expected to cope on so little bothers me - 

And for you - not being sure of the outcome of the employment you did seem to have some kind of contract about - that would be worse - it would not help your health at all - and yes - the only way is to go forward one day at a time - but those morning we wake up to the same-old-same-old - 

I am glad my daughter is finally having an operation she could have had a year ago - the surgeon she is seeing now is popular - I have heard good reports of him from the nurses at the clinic where I go - and he is moving quickly on her operation so this is a relief - 

I am not sure when my grand-daughter's lease on her flat runs out - she has been there two years though and has a good history for further rental accommodation - she  won't be doing anything about going to Queensland to look around until after Christmas - I know from our family history and no doubt so many mothers and daughters too - as loving as they can be run into conflict trying to share the same house after they have been away on their own. I know I did when I lived with my parents for a few weeks after I left my husband when my daughter was a small child - an added complication - my mother could not keep her mouth shut about everything and she was so far off the mark about what I was thinking - so I am glad the conversation with my daughter moved around to that sort of thing - I think she took it in

These last few years my daughter has been more reasonable - which is a good thing - and I rarely give advice - and I didn't this time - my memories and hers and my suggestions that it's fair to give the cook your intentions about being home for dinner or not are worthwhile parameters went down well -

Remarkable - I used to find the advice of my grandmothers worth hearing too - yes

I have been battling with the weather affecting my spine - and also - it is nearly my son's birthday and he would be 49 - and this is just plain weird - he would be nearly 50 - if he had children they would be adults too - I had actually not thought about that

That date will come to pass too and his adoption anniversary - it seems so long ago and yet it also can feel like yesterday

Companion Cat has regained her sweet nature - maybe she was sick - she was certainly nothing like the cat I had taken on 15 years ago - I am so glad she has come back to her right being and I don't have to think about anything bad right now - except she does need her teeth cleaned

My dinner seems to be cooked - I have roasted chops and vegies - a one dish wonder that cooks without me hovering over it

All the best Zoe

Dec

[Zoe7]

Thanks @Owlunar It is good news about Companion Cat also - maybe she was sick but has now recovered. Having her back to her old self would be a relief for you though and you don't have to think about the alternative 

I hope you enjoy your lunch - I had lunch early today ...didn't eat much yesterday so made sure I did today. I will have some chicken and vegetables for dinner tonight - nice and easy to get ready. 

I hope the rest of your day is a nice one for you Dec 

[Zoe7]

How is your afternoon going @Faith-and-Hope? Are you and Visual out and about yet?

[Faith-and-Hope]

Yep .... and all lunched out now  ..... 😏

Picking up some art gear for the trip next.

@Zoe7

[Zoe7]

I managed to get myself off the couch - cut around Toby's ears and vacuum. He still needs around his eyes done and a trim all over but the little bugger would not sit still today so I gave up. I don't have the energy this afternoon to play games with him and chase him all around the loungeroom - he will have to stay a little fluffball for another week  He is due for a bath again soon too so will have to try to do it all next weekend - thst does depend on what happens with work though.

Glad you are picking up some things for the upcoming trip @Faith-and-Hope That time will be here very soon 

[Shaz51]

Hello @Zoe7,  @Faith-and-Hope, @Owlunar, @CheerBear, @TAB

[Faith-and-Hope]

Art shop closed early cos it’s Sunday @Zoe7 .... have to pick the stuff up tomorrow now.

Hi @Shaz51 .....👋💕

[Shaz51]

helloooo @Faith-and-Hope