Hi @Former-Member nice to see yoiu on here 🙂
how are you?
I do struggle a whole lot more when I am home alone. Although i love being alone and the quietness it brings with no tv, radio or anything on. Just being still. But then all of a sudden my inner voice starts, my thoughts start and then my behaviour begins.
I still struggle when is the time to call for help. Most times when i have called lifeline or chatted online if it is really bad they have called an ambulance, only happened once and i was home alone. i won't go into it for triggering purposes.
It is a huge responsibility putting down someone's name on a safety plan. I haven't put any friends down. only put my professional support team. i wouldn't put that pressure or responsibility on someone else.
that's why i struggle so much because i hide a lot of my struggles, my thoughts and behaviours. no one knows, well you guys do but no one else. Not even my sister or close friends know.
I understand your concern why you are not sure if you are up to being a contact on the safety plan.
I feel so tired at the moment, my back is sore. I still feel destructive and my thoughts are a bit out of control.
how do i know what to do. so i have this safety plan - i don't know i am so confused at the moment. my thoughts are racing, my mind is so negative. maybe if i did sh i would feel okay. no that is bad, i can't do that. i need to get off, my mind is thoughts that are triggering me right now.
Sorry @Former-Member xxx
