Oh yes @utopia - I hear you
You thought your depression was over - the way you are feeling right now has to be disappointing in a major way
And you have had a row with your mother - not a good thing to feel - it seems you are in touch with a lot of social reality and it concerns you - causing you some distress. She doesn't understand how seriously you take these social issues - and she has a past too - and life does go on from day to day and when there is concern there can be worry - sometimes turning to anxiety
Probably sorting through your emotions will take time - I feel certain that you are entitled to the way you feel - perhaps your anger will settle as you do.
I can get pretty angry sometimes - I have been waiting at home day after day for my NBN to be connected and this is frustrating. Add together my bundle of hassles and bothers and whatevers - I let my frustrations out on the person who rang me this evening about the NBN and I did raise my voice - so I get it really Utopia. Enough is enough and if it goes further than your nerves etc can stand - it can get out of hand
But this is your Mum and this isn't good - I hope it works out quickly - yeah - I really do
It seems as if anger is one of your major issues right now. I always think it's better to own our emotions rather than batten them down so they find their way inside. I really do working through things slowly will eventually work
I was depressed for years during my son's life-time and after he died - I seem to have come to terms with all the chaos in his life - I had to accept what it was - that path takes time to find. Who knows about the future though - we can hope - sometimes we don't know what we should hope for.
It's good that you are seeing a psychologist but it's a bit touchy right now. Go for it though Utopia - talking through things is the way to go if your psychologist it the right fit for you
I do wish you the best and hope things settle for you
Lots of hugs and best thoughts
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