Hi @Former-Member
I feel very sad when people leave too, that even goes for work.
I've never got over the long-term staff being gone, most of them left over 1 year ago.
I'm one of only 4 staff (out of more than 20), who's been there for 2 years or more.
Most have only worked there for 6 months to 1 year, yet show no appreciation for knowledge or experience - they like to boss me around, when I'm twice their age & have 10 years experience working in disabilities (most of them have none).
Plus I grew up with my brother who is blind & intellectually disabled, which had huge impact on my family.
I frequently have brief thoughts of Dad, though I still have virtually no memories of him to fall back on - that's childhood amnesia due to trauma (CPTSD).
I often feel sad that Dad is not here (not alive). I don't feel that it has shifted much, despite my best efforts - I could not access virtually any grief services at the crucial time (2 & 1/2 years ago).
Now I feel that I cannot adequately express my grief (anymore), to be able to work with it anyway - it's too late, too far gone (if you know what I mean).
Sorry, I'm not wanting to be negative, that's just how I feel.
I have been having some vivid recollections of past events & people, things that I do not often remember (not consistently).
I think that is a very good sign - it means that the memories are still in there somewhere, & that I do have an amazing memory for some things.
I remember places I visited & people I met, over 30 years ago...
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