Hi @utopia
Yes - being introduced as a favourite is something special - one moment that will live and bear fruit of it's own
Physical pain and emotional pain - I guess it's different for everyone and when you are suffering emotionally your personal space gets larger I am sure - I feel this - as if children in a waiting room will drive me up the wall - I can't stand people sitting near me - and I have had the back pain since the mid 90s. I can be irritable at time esp when my pain is bad - but still - what has to have been the worst moment in my life - when my then-h told me my son had died I was in hospital and under strong medication, They could treat the shoulder pain where my shoulder had been badly pulled apart - so it seemed that the physical pain was easier to managed than the pain within me that they could not give me anything for it
As time - and years of it - passed I found that when the grief was worse the physical pain would go away and I had a migraine today after the tooth thing I guess - after lots of things happening lately. In the past I would cry myself into a bad migraine - my head would be bursting - I think you get them too - and when I had a migraine I didn't feel the grief - but it came back when the migraine was treated -
Then I would have said that the emotional pain was worse but since I saw my uncle and saw how ill he is and also the truth that he has always been in my life - decades of contact back and forth since I was born
The doctor gave me strong medication for my migraine and while I was waiting my day felt terrible - I did get the place tidied up at bit but - well it's looking better - but I felt terrible apart from the headache and the toothache which is less - and I was near tears off and on and my doctor gave me a shot for my migraine and it eased but yes - the realisation that my unlce means so much to me and that his time might be short or (he might recover) - I feel worse than I did before my parents died - you know the time when you know what has to happen and it feels like "we are standing on solid rock believing in hallowed ground but living on borrowed time"
You are right - the physical pain can be worse - ease up and the different pains change places and hurt in different ways
Thinking of you Utopia - I know you have very deep pain yourself
Dec
