Part 2
Day 6
Have given up on day 5. Can't even remember what happened yesterday - not even the positives.
So today. Woke up in a different room. So thankful my friend let me take the spare bed in her room. Slept totally. No waking. Didn't hear a thing. Peace.
Today my I went back to my room and my roommate was moved to a single room. Ends up the staff last night forgot to give her her meds!!!! No wonder she was bouncing off the walls last night. But even with her high mania - I can still see her kind personality shinning through. So I got a new roommate this afternoon. No mania. Not trying to 'fix' me. So we'll be fine.
Went to a mindfulness practice session today. Thank god. Finally a practical self help tool.
Facilitator went through the body scan. I've never been able to do this - even in my meditation class. But today I managed to actually visualise and feel 3 different areas of my body.
Previous score at body scanning - 0
Todays body scan score - 3.
Winner!!!
Was surprised to find how sleepy and calm I felt after this class. Especially when I walked in in an anxious state.
Went to lunch - couldn't wait to see the Chocolate Puddings that I'd cried about yesterday. If they looked as good as I hoped they would - then I wouldn't eat a lunch meal - I would just eat 5 puddings. Maybe a slight exaggeration - but definitely 3.
I went to where the deserts are held. No chocolate pudding. So I went to the kitchen serving counter. They must be there. I asked the lunch lady. No. They had to change the menu today because they didn't have the ingredients. So I cried. And the kitchen lady looked freaked out at my reaction (not the normal kitchen lady). So I ordered the vegie soup. Wiped my eyes. Ate lunch and chain smoked in the courtyard. But was ok.
Second section of today will be written soon. Another AHA break through that I hope @Former-Member and
@Faith-and-Hope and others may understand and maybe get some benefit from.
