Hi @EternalFlower
Yes - this is a "truth bubble" - I like that expression - I might use it myself sometimes in the future.
I do have people in and out of my life - I have been lucky like that - as I wrote above - I have had long term - what seemed to be good friendships - which fell apart - and that hurt a lot - so casual chats here and there - and support workers sometimes - that works for me.
For years I was so busy with family, work, university and church activities I wonder now how I had time to breathe - it was good though - I enjoyed driving and when I could I would take off for long drives with my kids - and after they went their different ways I drove alone - wherever I felt like it - and stayed in motels overnight only to continue to drive - what a life - it was great.
Now - retired - I like my own space too - I hear you though - you are depressed - too far down to go out and get your medication for pain. Would your pharmacy bring some to your home? Maybe not if you don't know them. I chat with my pharmacist too - maybe I'm just a chatter box.
But I digress - you are in pain and alone and I know that uncomfortable state of affairs. I don't feel depressed - it was a bleak weekend here in Melbourne and I did not feel happy. So - I understand.
Someone recently told me that it was okay to be not-okay - I didn't think so - I am old school I guess - and still - if I am not happy I don't like to be told to cheer up - so I never say that.
So - I feel for you - if you were somewhere handy I would sit with you and maybe watch a movie that would make us both cry. Tears are healing - they release a hormone that builds up when we are stressed,
I never tell people to have a good day - they might be feeling miserable and I can let them be honest with themselves without intruding.
I am thinking of you though
Owlunar
