Yes @Zoe7
I spent too much time wishing things were different but I have reached a stage where that isn't an issue anymore and yet - there are so many things that could have been better
And that is something I have been thinking about because I started a thread about Women's Mental Health and Self-Esteem and for a while I have been thinking about it and what to write because I feel it's really important and I want the thread to live
And one of the things we do wish we could change is the unalterable past - and one of the hardest things to get past is my mother - although it toxic fumes have blown off there are times when I feel incredibly sad for her sake - what an unhappy woman she was
But I have let it go - I can wonder without it hurting - in fact - I have had moments of incredible clarity about it since I reached a region of inner peace about many things since she died
One thing that has changed my thinking has been my Blood Pressure Medication - it is often prescribed for anxiety and I have been less anxious - no desire to see another therapist exists right now - which is wonderful - I am not sure when my thinking really changed and I accepted so much
Was it before or after I started with the BP medication? Not that it really matters
And for you - following through what your doctor and your pdoc give you to do and even in a month you are improving -
It's a really great feeling isn't it - we do have good days and better days and rotten days but this is the natural order in the world - we don't have to be happy all the time
That was one of my big moments with a therapist - I am allowed to be unhappy of that's what's happening and would you believe the therapist tried to take that wonderful moment away from me - but I refused to be contradicted - that was a major moment for me
You really do work hard at improving your health Zoe and it shows in your writing
And your feedback is right on the ball
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