when is it time for hospital

[Former-Member]

Yeh I just took a tablet outlander got a bottle there,no excuse,

I could go crook at your thoughts,but I just had the same about myself outlander a few seconds ago very negative and the same "I'm a loser ,who would want me?" thoughts.Listening to music on my tablet and had them.It's shit sometimes how like I can suddenly have anxiety out of nowhere too,like in bed  when I'm trying to go to sleep or on my walk etc.My triggers are various too, people I know or have worked with, people I know who I  avoid in case they stick their nose in my business,,kids screaming in shops,family,I avoid them etc.

When I was bad with severe depression/anxiety and a reaction to a antidepressant,I used to find myself staring at myself in the mirror looking back it was a form of psychosis,I would get distressed looking at myself.I was lost,still am outlander,you may be alone atm,but you aren't alone in how you feel.

[outlander]

Its so shite @Former-Member
I dont know how i can make things better
I can't see anything good anymore
Whatswrong eith me. Im not some sort of evil spirit am i

[Former-Member]

If you are a evil spirit I must be the devil's advocate outlander.
When did you start having this,or can you look back and now know or I assume the sexual assault bought it out.

[outlander]

I am evil @Former-Member
Cant do anything right and all i see is darkness

[Former-Member]

You aren't evil outlander,just probably like me and got the short straw in life,I struggled with myself all my life I just hope somehow you can overcome this and move on in life.

[outlander]

The short end hey how about the short end kerps getting cut and getting shorter
Its not very fair is it @Former-Member

[outlander]

@Former-Member
Can u watch over dor abit
Im not in a good way butI cant do anything about it

[Former-Member]

No it's not outlander but we have to make the most of what we have .I hate being with a disability job provider because there's others with physical disabilities.My disability is the fact that  I am simply not good enough.

[outlander]

Im sure your good enough @Former-Member being older its harder to get a Job as well.

[Former-Member]

Thanks outlander,you made me feel so much better!Yes being older does suck at times getting a job.Im off to bed now to rest my old body,better go and look in the mirror to see how old I am.!Lol.Hope you sleep.🙋