when is it time for hospital

[outlander]

Lol guys
First time in a long time i have my hair out ans straightened and i got hit on by 2 guys (flirting not literally hit)
@CheerBear @Former-Member @eth @Owlunar @Former-Member @Former-Member

[Former-Member]

I thought about what I said this morning,and what Niqeeta1 said on her post which I first disagreed with .It all depends who you feel comfortable with talking about the sexual assault.If you need time to disclose this ,yes go at your own pace,and work on the trust.I thought about this due to thinking of my own help and how I feel let down by it.At the moment you are seeing a few,which I think would be confusing and hard to know who can help.

Sounds like you are OK ,by how you feel from getting flattery.Hopefully outlander,thnere are genuine guys out there.Think they get turned off by my whiskas!Lol🐱

[Owlunar]

Oh wow!!!! @outlander

You must be looking better - the boys have seen you - how great is that???

Dec

[outlander]

Hi @Owlunar@Former-Member@Former-Member and everyone else here

i am finally feeling abit better- i think i only had a 24hr hour bug so thank god its gone!

it seems one of the jobs have backed out or will only be from time to time now. Bad luck I suppose but what can you do hey..

so I went to the psychologists counsellor this morning and again she doesnt make me feel very comfortable and it was only a half an hour session. She doesnt help me when I ask for help or am needing direction she sits there just as awkward as I am.
Like today we talked about my hospital admission, and how life has changed but when I was asking for help she didnt know what to say and just said things like- stick up for yourself, make sure your nutrition is good. Thtas not helping me, thats telling me things I already know. So I think im best off giving her up and sticking with the one counsellor.

I went and seen my horse for a little bit and then left there.

I not long after I left the horses went to my gp appointment.
We talked about a lot of things and I feel I can talk to her. We talked about the hospital stay , whats changed now, how am I going in general, medications and a psych assessment. She thinks I wont need the mental health team to give me an assessment but my new psych could instead of running through so many different people. I need to have stable relationships with the health practitioners I have now.
I will only have to see her once a week unless I or she thinks I need to increase it again but at the moment im out of that major danger zone so thats good.

I finally made an arrangement to see my psychiatrist and I hope that doesnt bring back the paranoia again.

Ive been abit flustered this afternoon and I was given new tablets that I not long taken. They cost me 40$ to get them! I hope they bloody work casue all up just two of my tablets cost me $50 plus ill need repeats on my other tablets soon too.

But now my anxiety is back but these new tablets are suppose to kick in within the next hour. I just hope they work!

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander

Your life is moving along - it will have changes and some things will be stable - and one thing is normal

Anxiety - people get anxious - it's pretty normal - it's the degree and how disabling it becomes that is the thing - but yes - with all you have happening anxiety is part of it

You know - some people are in the wrong job and maybe the victims of crime psyche doesn't really get the way people feel - sometimes people have natural talent for understanding - other people don't and this person - ho hum - yeah - it can be a hard job - and people need a sense of commitment

I think we can see too many people at times and confusion can set it - but you do need to talk to someone about your SA to get past it - so work through things bit by bit - but why go when you feel uncomfortable - you don't need that - or I should say - I wouldn't

Are you a low-income earning? If you are you can get your medication more cheaply - as I do as a part-pensioner - it makes a huge difference when you are taking a variety of medications.

But you sound so much better - and this is good to hear

Dec

[outlander]

@Owlunar@Former-Member@Former-Member

I do feel I have to be very careful who I tell, I seem to have pretty good instincts even when my anxiety is high or my depression is low. Ive always got good gut feelings about things so thats one thing in my favour. This victims of crime psych- despite asking several time for help she just donestn help me. She doesnt give me any sense of direction and even when I dont know what to say she doesnt help take the conversation anywhere it justs sits there awkwardly waiting for either me or her to speak to carry it forward. I go there for her help, not the other way around.

Ive taken up a short course in psych, then ill look at nutrition and then common illnesses and then nursing. After all that I think im going to try to get somewhere in the medical field. I was looking at nursing, patient transport, assitant in nursing/enrolled nurse or a medication endorsed nurse- menaing I can give out medications to patients.

Im not too sure of those plans as yet, I just want to take things slowly as I havent even started working on triggers as yet so I know itll get harder again.

@Owlunaryour right- I am a lot wiser and mature way beyond being 20 and it has come at a very high price but I suppose its better to be young and wise than old and clueless hey.
I jst wish it didnt come with a high price and I couldve learnt it through just norml life circumstances.

@Former-Memberyou can never say the wrong thing. Everyone has their own personal experiences and views and no one thinks completely alike so dont worry about what you think is right or wrong around me I know you mean well ok..? im sorry you have those other dark entitis. I have those still too. I dont think they will ever go away just become less dominant.

@Former-MemberI dont like this VOC psych she doesnt suit me at all and I dont feel comfortable around her so I guess thats saying something and in that state I wont tell her anything really hey

and lol no- I rather not be noticed at all. Id rather hide in my shell for a long while yet. No bf for me and I prob wont see them again lol.

[outlander]

@Owlunar 

i agree i think my voc counsellor is in the wrong profession or is in it for thewrong reasons and thats just for money. when i got in therer she told me to sign something so she can claim a cancellation fee. i had to cancel the day before as id only jsut come out of hospital. and it sounds like she only in it for that reason so i dunno. im not going bakc to her anyway now, ill stick with the new psych for now.

i am low income earning but these new meds dont come under pb or pension or naything. these ones i have to pay full price for.

[Former-Member]

Yes she sounds pretty hopeless who you went to today,I went to one twice,and when I got distressed it as clear he had no bloody idea what to do.Plus all he went on about was how great he was working from home(a garage next to his house is the office).Too busy with his ego and at the end of the day for someone on welfare,I questioned who was the biggest bludger out if the two because he lacked qualities.

Sounds like she couldn't keep your thought processes going and basically lacked insight.

Just be aware of the side effects of these drugs outlander.

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander

When you ask a professional person for direction and they seem pathetic you can do better - as a policeman's daughter I think I would have more of an idea - you need direction - and one thing is finding someone more useful - there are other bodies of professional people who can help

I just thought of CASA - I can't think what that stands for - I will have to look it up but it's to help women and I have found it helpful to talk to them a couple of time through the years. 

I just looked that up - and it is not what I thought - but I can search the net for something for women who have been SAd - maybe the people who helped me are not there now - it was a long time ago

It's great you have a gut feeling about these things

I have met many people through my life and there are times when I am amazed at how clueless some people are - but wisdom comes at a high price. I remember praying for wisdom when I was in my early 30s - my life lacked direction and my purpose seemed to be looking after everything for 3 other people and I was bored out of my brains - and I prayed - and I started getting wisdom that day - and I went back to school - and still cared for the other three people in my life but I had myself first - and that is a far better way to arrange priorities - we need to care for ourselves

While I was looking on the net I saw another message - your medication is not covered my the PBS - I am sorry about that - but maybe your doctor can help you with that because sometimes medication is available more cheaply if the doctor writes a letter - but it depends

Keep going - the very momentum of moving along makes it all easier

Dec

[outlander]

Yeah it was pretty useless today yet again @Former-Member ao not worth going again.
Yeah im watching side effects amd stuff. The new meds should be starting tonwork anyime now. Its suppose to work within 2 hours. Its been wn hour and a half now