Lacking direction, unsure of what I need to do and generally just fed up.......

[MDT]

True that @Owlunar
You are right. Achieving that degree was something considering I nearly quit it.
When I graduated I couldn't attend my graduation ceremony because I was overseas. I think it was the 4th of December and I was in New York City. Funny old thing. That holiday is a reminder of what I can do on my own. I was travelling on my own.

If only finding a job in that area was something I could do. Its highly competitive and very prone to change.

I am more of a writer and I recently got a gig with a small mob so that was good. Won't really go anywhere till next year but I also competed in a comp they ran. Wonder
what till happen there...

Idk. I might go to the hospital or maybe not @TideisTurning
I'm really sad and feel like crying or punching a hole in the wall

[Shaz51]

Sounds like you need a field or on top of a hill and yell as loud as you can to let it all out my @MDT xx 

Then take a big breath,  3 big breath  in and then exhale it all out 

Sitting with you my friend 

[TideisTurning]

Hearing the frustration and sadness @MDT. Do whatever feels right for you. Maybe not punching holes in walls, but some other kind of constructive release. I sometimes go for a pillow, because that's a little soffter. I've also found writing it down and then ripping it all into tiny shreds a bit satisfying or as @Shaz51 has suggested, there's always a good scream atop a hill (or into a pillow).Know that it's ok to let it out. Hoping things will feel a little better soon. Be kind to yourself, Hamsolo01, and take care 😊  

[Shaz51]

Also playing your p.c.games to will be a good outlet @MDT 

[MDT]

Idk anymore

I don't even care tbh

😥

[MDT]

Forget about it

[MDT]

Honestly can't see anything ahead of me. Nothing but stupid circles. Around and around... its insanity

[MDT]

Going to go to the hospital after work
See if I can talk to someone

[MDT]

I am a failure and loser
🤒😞😓😰

[outlander]

@MDT perhaps calling a helpline would be more helpful at this point
if your in crisis then hospital is an option however they dont always admit you.
do you have a counseller/psch/pdoc? i would suggest ringing thos clinics and asking for appointments, if none are avaliable, ask to go on the cancellation list