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APPROACHING SURE?

Former-Member
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Hi @Former-Member Smiley Happy Heart

I hear your not having such a good day, I hope you start to feel better soon. Remember you are precious and vaulable @Former-Member Heart

 I start my first volunteer shift tomorrow & I have kinda thrown myself in the deep end by having a morning shift. I am going to be doing one shift a each week until the new year & then do two shifts a week & work my way up to three shifts a week. I will be starting my swimming next year and hopefully doing some fun runs too.

I have booked to go to Hawaii last week with my brother and sister in law for ten days and then spend a few days in Sydney on my return. At least now I have something to look forward to mid way through the year.

 

 

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That sounds fantastic @Former-Member. I'm really pleased for you. I really hope it all comes together for you. You have worked hard for it and persevered. Hawaii 🙌 woohoo. 💜🤗

im probably not in a place to post much and I think if I did it would be inappropriate so I'm removing myself for a bit. Hopefully tomorrow will be better. 

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Hello @Former-Member, @Appleblossom, @Former-Member, @Former-Member

how is everyone tonight xx

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My internet connection has not worked for a few days, but that is not the only system that was down.

Yesterday, there were some fatalities and trains were replaced by buses.  There was also a 4 car pile up on freeway so bus took many hours and a small child about 6, threw up, due to the heat and the chugging and swaying of bus.

I just have continued to do my alotted tasks, but sad and thoughtful.  I was impressed at watching a lot of mothers managing their children with all the issues.

2 people I spoke to about the hold up  ... were really INAPPROPRIATE ... it is unfortunately a part of our Australian society to be a bit brutish.  I am not taking it personally anymore.  its just the way things are.

I used to push myself to keep searching for solutions, and whip myself to take responsibility, but as it turned out even if I had driven in I would have had issues, and missed my singing call.

I missed not being able to get onto the forum.

Hello everybody.

Former-Member
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Hi @Appleblossom,

Sorry you have had some curved balls to navigate. Sorry I don't seem to have much to say but wanted to say hi 👋. I hope things settle for a bit now. I got thrown off kilter last week by a few events too, very unsettling but I'm coping better now. Sending best wishes 💜🤗

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Lovely to see your response to me @Former-Member

Ups and downs and curved balls .. Yep .. thats life.

Hold yourself gently too, Bella.

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I really appreciated our conversation on @Former-Member's Sleeping Too Much Thread @Zoe7

I feel that a weight has lifted from my shoulders and it will give me confidence to manage some irl interactions with Germans and Jews in the upcoming months. Danke.

I have changed the thread title .. to Approaching Sure because it is more optimistic about resolving my issues.  I have known for a long time about my ambivalence, so it is good to be able to integrate some of those issues better.

This thread started about a CONVERSATION.  I hope I have more of the fulfilling kinds in the future.

It is a huge thing for me to realise and articulate that my return from the orphanages was met with the level of care .. lucky you were not in a concentration camp .. No I was not naughty or bolshy or blaming when I returned.  Then I was recruited into believing that I ws lucky I was not in a camp. However I think that freaked people out (perhaps a kind of social dissonance), when I acted from that supposition. Mostly it has been people I met in various therapies dealing with holocaust issues have been able to respond appropriately to my level of grief.

I am feeling a calm and conviction about this.  It doesnt mean that my dutch family were appropriate to me or my brother, but at least I have some better words and concepts to communicate my truth as I move forward.

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@Appleblossom

I hope we can have more similar conversations in the future also as it was really great to be able to use my brain for more than just worrying, stressing and intrusive thoughts. Thanks xx

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Thank you @Zoe7

Last night was BIG and will take a bit to integrate. There may be long term consequences.

In the meantime I will focus on the moment today.  We have agreed to watch "The Hollow Crown" and eat healthy and well, but with a little splurge.

Thank you anybody who cared.

Heart

 

Former-Member
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hope you are doing ok this evening @Appleblossom 

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