im back..... i think

[utopia]

@outlander. Your nurse sounds fantastic. Very undrrstanding and gentle. I'm sure she will let you take the reins tomorrow. So you will be in control of it all. If you need to stop and have a breather, just let her know. You may surprise yourself and find that you cope really well. I hope so.
I'm off to bed. Been awake since early yesterday morning.
Remember to breathe

[Former-Member]

That's great to hear about your nurse being kind and understanding @outlander
And I'm pleased to hear that you're having all the tests done tomorrow. Good to get the worries out of your mind.
Good idea to leave the studying until you feel a bit better. Definitely time for you to rest.
Early night would be good to, if you're able to.
Well done for getting through the day and making it to your appointment.

I'm showered and in pjs already. They don't look like pjs. 😊

[Former-Member]

Exhausted @Shaz51 💜😴
What about you? Are you ok?

[Shaz51]

@outlander. Your nurse sounds fantastic xx

Hi @Former-Member, feeling very tired, did not sleep well last night

[Former-Member]

That's no good @Shaz51
Me either.
Early night for us. 😊❤😴

[outlander]

Will reply soon guys @Former-Member @Shaz51 @utopia @Owlunar @Former-Member @Appleblossom @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member

[Former-Member]

No rush @outlander 💕

[outlander]

I didnt want you to think i was snobbing you off

[Owlunar]

It sounds as if everything is at some stage of investigation or treatment now @outlander

And that's a lot

I have been to the doctor and he gave me an injection for the pain - which I am allowed to have - and I feel like a completely different person -

I went to sleep afterwards - I sorta knew I was - I was in the recovery room - they let me lie down for a while as the injection worked - it was such a relief

I am so proud of you - you have taken your life in both hands and gone to have your health checked and improved - that sounds really positive - and all the best for tomorrow

Dec

[outlander]

honestly guys your support is trueley amazing it you guys getting me through this and that is the truth! you guys realyl are like family and i SERIOUSLY CANT THANK  YOU ENOUGH! i cant find the right words to express them

@Former-Member@Shaz51@utopia@Owlunar@Former-Member@Former-Member

yes my nurse is quite fantastic!
Yes ive dealt with her before for another issue I was having and she was very kind and emapathtic about that as well and as I was telling her all the things that have been going on her jaw dropped and I think it hit the floor and she says good greif child!!
I think thats an idiciation im going through a lot atm lol
shes very understanding. I wrote her a list of questions and actually just handed it to her and she said thats absolutley fine, id rather hear the questions than not at all.
She explained what she does etc and if at any time I ask her to stop we can take a breather.
She seems to be helping me quite a lot. She said if I tense up its ok we are going to take things sowly which I why I booked the double appointment.
I dont know if ill be able to study tomorrow as I know its already going to be traumatic. So ill be tryng to do more self care things I think just to settle the mind but id be surprised if I come out and im ok. Im trying to be brave and let her do all the examniantions includng breast and the full pelvic exam as well. Im trying to at least. I really want to get it done all in one go instead of putting myself through that trauma over and over again.
Im going to try to have an early night, shower and watch a movie. Then in the morning I might have a nother shower or go for a walk then have a shower so I can relax abit more or maybe try the deep breathing again using your technique Utopia