@MJG017 Thank you for your response. You are such a sweetie. I found after posting on here, I started to feel a bit better. So I decided that being around nice people and having a few drinks would probably take my mind off the emotions that I was feeling.
So I went and enjoyed myself. I only thought about my ex partner once and it was a fleeting thought. I spent most of my time talking to my friend, as I hadn't seen her in a while. And it made me realise that I missed our conversations. So I am going to try and make more of an effort to see her more often.
Unfortunately they are moving back to Tasmania next year, so I need to spend what time I can in her awesome company.
I have always wanted to go to Tasmania and now I will have somewhere to stay. Once my back is strengthened and I have saved some money I would love to go and visit.
I am glad that I decided to go, and it also showed me that my mindset has definitely started changing, as normally I would have stayed in bed for a few days. Monday is the anniversary of his death and I will go to the cemetery, so hopefully those emotions don't creep up on me again. But if they do, that's ok, I will use the emotions to write a letter to him, that I will later burn. At least I will feel like I have released the anger I now feel when I think of him.
