The Challenges of Mental Health Wellbeing

[Sans911]

@outlander

@Teej

Are you still around? I hope my post to you Teej didn't upset. It's hard to get the words right some days

[outlander]

Im still up sis u ok? @Sans911

[Sans911]

No lil Sis @outlander

Not ok by a long shot. I know others are struggling to maintain safety too, and I just feel incredibly sad for everyone who's struggling.

Thinking of @Teej

@Zoe7

@Snowie

and of course you.

I'm so lost tonight. Feel so flat. I think I've been forgetting my meds as I've got extras. Don't know why. I feel like I have everyone's worry on my shoulders. So weighed down.

[outlander]

Hugs sis @Sans911
Its painful being so lost and weighed down isnt it. Maybe arrange meds into those pill boxes with the days/times on them so you can keep track...

Do you want to talk about some of the things weighing you down abit ? Maybe together we can release a little bit? Or we can talk about something different, i dont mind.
I wont be asleep for a while yet so talk away. Id rather be up with you anyway.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Sans911 .....

The chairperson who has been rough with you is probably part of it.  When one of mine gets aggressive it causes my emotions to loop the loop for a bit and I need to take some time to settle my inner world back down, and she has been aggressive with you.

Lots of whatever self-care you can manage Hon.  It's good to see you here, even though you're not great.  Just seeing your avatar lifts the spirits of others.

[Sans911]

I'm only allowed a few days meds as a time @outlander

due to safety reasons and they've my only morning meds, so you think it wouldn't be hard to remember. Plus I have a medication reminder app as well that pops up at a set time.

The stuff weighing me down is everything. My mother's stresses, the network issues, my own feelings of insecurity, just everything. I just feel overwhelmed like I haven't been in a long time. Not like this.

[outlander]

They arent hard to forget @Sans911 i have 3 for night but still forget sometimes. Your emotions are all jumbled, makes everything else harder to do and remember.

@Faith-and-Hope has covered the emotional stuff from your network nicely. I know it is friggin hard but what happened there isnt your fault. Your wonderful empathetic nature and big heart isnt something that comes naturally to others (even if they work in more sensitive department/networks) so they cant understand,makes those that do an easy target to get hurt unfortunately...

Would it help you to have a worry box? At least just to help put things away for the time being... i dont want to overwhelm you anymore though,  im hearing you though on every single thing youve said 

[Sans911]

I can sometimes compartmentalise things but not that @outlander

I could write something in a a journal but it would make no difference to the way I feel or thoughts in my head.

They just go round and round and round.

[outlander]

Ok @Sans911
What about for tonight we steer away from emotions and talk about something else?
Give you a little bit of breathing space from the thoughts? Im happy to make a few topic suggestions if that will help...

[Sans911]

One, that would be good to steer away from emotions. Two, I've taken my night meds so not sure how long I've got.

@outlander

Take me on a drive somewhere in your car, your choice, describe for me what the places look like. Is that ok? That way if I fall asleep it's because of your smooth driving.

You've already calmed me a little just by being here with me. When we talk like this, I often feel we're just sitting on the sofa, sipping hot chocolate, chatting away like 2 sisters would.