The Challenges of Mental Health Wellbeing

[Teej]

This person does kind of hold those keys @Faith-and-Hope. Her assessment will change everything and my support at cmh. She’s told me it won’t but that is complete bs. It will change lots. I’m pretty sure it will be a gradual release of services as not to be so obvious but will not be long before I’m discharged from the service as a lost cause. I get it but it’s hard when it’s your life. 

Edited. When you don’t have what’s considered a permanent condition there is much more pressure to get you off their books. It’s a gov dept so they need bang for their buck. If it is permanent you get maintenance support but nothing beyond that too. This is where the ndis is going to create hell for those caught between the cracks. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

That thought makes me angry @Teej .... others within the community receive support for life ..... and if people are not supported by the community this way, then they require support from the  community in other ways.  

Do you know for sure that that can happen, or is it this person threatening you with it ?

[Teej]

Ok I haven’t been told exactly but there has been enough for me to join the dots. 2 visits ago my psychiatrist said to me that she didn’t know what they could do to help me anymore. I wasn’t improving and it seemed like it wouldn’t. My cc has said that she is struggling to support me because the things I need she can’t help with. She has an approach with me that is sometimes counterproductive but she knows me enough and it’s not a dreadful relationship, however I know she feels like her service could be better used with someone else. They then had the meeting with the senior psychologist and everyone in my care and it was deemed that this was the best chance of me responding better to therapy. THEN she learned about my complexities and history and she consulting with peers in this therapy I was deemed a long shot. 

So so it’s not hard to see that this not working out will be the end of services. Not sure about seeing the psychiatrist but I think that will remain but not for therapy only med maintenance every 3-6 months. 

@Faith-and-Hope

I have given lots away in this and may need to edit it at some stage soon. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

I understand the need to edit @Teej.

Please let your therapist know just how insecure this is all making you feel.  They may need to go back to the drawing board for a re-think.

[outlander]

Hugs @Teej hearing every word and challange your facing. You wont ever be a lost cause either 💜💜💜

[Teej]

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope.  I hope today is treating you kindly

[Appleblossom]

Hi @Sans911 I often think of you and hope you are doing alright.

Your post made me laugh with the ... "anything" ...

probably autocorrect ... but with my "if the cap fits wear it"  mentality ... I related.  Luckily I was in a good mood, had a few hours gardening.  There were decades in my life I could not see the funny side of anything, but things have improved a lot within myself.

@Teej I have never heard of this "fail therapy" concept before .... 

One thing I learned from my ex ... is that when people can decide which game is being played they usually choose games they excell in and that tilts a sense of confidence and achievement towards those already with advantage.

Win/lose or pass/fail dualistic attitudes can make things extra hard for us.

What we learn or gain from therapy is often felt or comes to fruition in the years after.

It is a stepping stone... on the journey.  

My mind goes back to @Faith-and-Hope beautiful painting.

I put all my trust into therapists for a long time.  Ambivalence, conflicting thoughts and self doubt were huge in my mind.   Often too huge to speak, but as each day dawns I am learning which bits of myself to trust more and which bits may lead me up a garden path. 

You can do that too. 

[Teej]

Thanks @Appleblossom, 

Sorry I’m not sure what to say but I received your message well. Right now I know I don’t have the confidence or stamina to go it alone but I understand that things are learned over time. For me that seems a very long time. I know I haven’t wasted the therapies I’ve done but it hasn’t been life changing enough yet. 

Every time I hear about your gains I’m so pleased for you, it makes my heart smile. 

Thanks @outlander. I know it must feel strange for you to read this at the beginning of your life dealing with mental health. It’s not all been bad, I’m just a difficult person to enact change for a variety of reasons none of which are very cool. I hope your day is getting better. 

Am going to try to get going again now. Maybe walk dog. It’s a beautiful day here. 

[outlander]

@Teej nothing really surprises me anymore tbh in regards to mh.its bloody sucks. Im more than ok reading what youve said, not strange at all. Btw i dont deal with change well either.

[Sans911]

@Teej this is NOT my thread or space. You are dealing with the challenges of mental health wellbeing so this is an appropriate space. And I'm honoured that you wrote in a place that I visit frequently.