Living with Ourselves

[Sophia1]

hello @outlander

No sadly I did not make it out at all again yesterday....

have got ready in an effort to go out today....body just not allowing it to happen at the moment...

have been on computer too long again today 

so off for now

most likely back on tonight...

hope that the weekend brings some warm lovely moments for you 

[Sophia1]

I think that this works if you right click then select open link in new tab

Where the h..l is Matt? appears in new tab...press play

and travel around the world 

https://www.youtube.com/embed/Pwe-pA6TaZk?rel=0

[outlander]

@Sophia1 thats ok, dont be too hard on yourself ❤
Hoping today was ok for you

[Sophia1]

good morning all who pass

[Adge]

Ooh that's a lovely picture @Sophia1

Sorry, it's Good afternoon to you now...

Adge

[Sophia1]

Thankyou @Adge

Rather small and hard to see the magnificence of the canal..

I loved revisiting them whwn I was in the Uk ..

some are not as picturesque as others...

fascinates me that they were a hub of business trade so long ago..

some of the old riverboats are beautiful...

I had. A conversation with a new owner when we went for a meal at Bourton on The Water...this man had retired three weeks before sold his home and bought a new lifestyle..

it was a beautiful old wooden one completely restored..

How has your weekend been? Any enjoyable moments?

[Adge]

Yes, those canals used to be used to transport goods in riverboats, like you said @Sophia1

There's no public holiday here today, unlike NSW. We had WA day public holiday, the previous weekend.

So today was a normal work day here.

A beautiful old riverboat fully restored, that sounds lovely.

The weekend was tough, I'm sorry to say.

I had someone follow me out from the supermaket all the way to my car, to beg money from me - for the 3rd time in 5 days (that was yesterday afternoon).

It's become too triggering, simply because it's happened so often in just a few days - & because I had struggled physically just to drive myself there (to the shops).

I had a meltdown over it, not recovered yet, felt very unsafe.

I like your elephant Avatar picture, it's really nice.

Adge

[Sophia1]

Hello @Adge

had to have dinner after I last wrote ..

then spent time chatting with husband...he had visited his two sons an families...my husband is now a great grandfather and a very proud one..

That sounds like a quite frightening ordeal when people follow you to your car begging for money..several days in a row would be disturbing..

I can only reassure you with words...As well as let you know that the ordeal is over now..

Is it a shopping centre or supermarket on it's own? If you feel up to it you could let management know about the recurring incident...That person will be noted if they continue to bother people..

are you working full time now? 

[Sophia1]

good morning @outlander 

hoping that your silence is about stepping back and looking after yourself....

can feel even more isolating....it does for me...then I remind myself that it is my choice ....taking steps to improve my health...putting myself first....(feels out of place as is not the usual )...following through without beating ourselves up...helps us for the next time...

Here I go rabbiting on as usual.....

As the title infers living with ourselves is not an easy task...we have to keep on learning about who we are and practising being in the moment with our emotions...

talking to others on here about these emotions especially when overwhelming helps the process....

they don't disappear or become easier to deal with over night...they do become less intense the more that we can do this...

some traumatic emotions are best discussed with specialist as well...

@Adge

Hoping that you had some peaceful sleep last night....

when are you next seeing your specialist? can you move your appointment foward or arrange for one sooner...important to talk about your experiences where you felt triggered....avoiding burying the feelings...part of your looking after you...

@Former-Member

I do hope that life is starting to settle in at least some areas in regard to your living and caring for your dad...I can't remember what your interests were...craft...knitting...crochet? sorry...my mind has become very foggy again....

@eudemonism

How was your weekend? did you manage to settle your thoughts for a time and allow yourself to enjoy your own company? what did you do?

@Owlunar

Are you still observing the stars in the sky? I didn't have the mindset at the time when you did start your thread....

yet another thing that I forget to do ....look at the sky...

@Zoe7

how is your back now? did you receive your results from tests back? a diagnosis with ongoing treatment?

@Mazarita

How are you travelling? Has your medication started to behave? can you feel any benefits?

[Mazarita]

@Sophia1, hope your healing is moving forward. We haven't chatted for a while. I too tend to stick mostly to my own thread. I had an experience on the forum about a year ago that made me much shyer about where I go than I used to be. The new medication has started to make me feel better, especially less depressed than I was. But the sleep cycles are worse than on the old med, along with some other things. Just as I'm getting used to this new one though, I will probably be changing another med from this Saturday when I see my psychiatrist. All part of an ongoing change, hopefully leading to a halt to my weight gain (have gained 35-40kgs slowly over some years). Anyway, the process is not over yet, but I'm handling the instability fairly well nonetheless by mainly going with the flow of it, rather than resisting and getting too anxious about it. Thanks for asking how I am.