not feeling good

[Phoenix_Rising]

@Former-Member@Zoe7@BlueBay I am really sorry to hear you all have the sense of wanting to run away and disappear. I know this isn't even remotely helpful to any of you, but I wanted to say that your comments have reminded me how grateful I am that I have no one in my life. Even though this is scary in a lot of ways, the reality is that I HAVE run away and disappeared. I am completely free from the encumberment of family and friends. Of course, this also means I totally lack the support of family and friends, but your comments remind me that it definitely isn't all bad, being utterly alone in this world.

[BlueBay]

Hi @Zoe @Former-Member
We could all run away together. But where would we go?

[outlander]

@BlueBay ❤ ❤

[Shaz51]

@BlueBay, @Zoe7, @Former-Member

[Former-Member]

somewhere warm!! @BlueBay and relaxing...

[BlueBay]

I've just seen my psych. Had my brain scan and all good. Relieved. Feel down empty and I don't know. Anyway it doesn't matter.
Sorry about my crap all the time.

[outlander]

@BlueBay HI BB

so proud of you for getting your brain scan and its also great news it came back good as well

and of course you matter!

and you dont have to apologise either!

what have you been getting up to over the past few days?

[BlueBay]

I have to tell my hubby about my Sh and thoughts of suicide. He has no idea at all. My psych wants a meeting before we go away next week. I'm scared I'm upset and feel alone. 😥
I've been knitting a lot. Colouring my book. Now i have to work out how do I cope while away. And u have to tell my psych "what is I am not coping mean to me". What does that mean. Can someone give me some ideas or suggestions pls.

[outlander]

that would feel very scary and i can understand that, i really feel for you. i think it might help your husband understnad how much your struggling though...

you arent alone here, you have many supports here as well, if only i could come and give you a hug @BlueBay

 its good youve been keeping your mind occupied by knitting and coluring in too.

that is a hard question to answer BB

@NikNik @CherryBomb @Former-Member could you maybe give BB some insight as to how to answer that?

to me i think it means what sort of things  are signs/symptoms of when your not coping- is it the SH or SI, overwhelmed, sadness etc but i could be wrong there

[CherryBomb]

Telling loved ones about SI is a tough conversaton to have. Though once you get the discussion open, it'll create some space for him to be able to help you more. 

Your psych probably just wants to meet with you to check in to see you're feeling ok, and feel equipped about going away. 

re, how to explaing to some one what does 'I'm not coping mean' to you. That's a tough question @BlueBay. Perhaps start with what you are usually experiencing at these times? And what can people do for you when feel this way?