not feeling good

[BlueBay]

Thanks @Former-Member

It's about not seeing my parents; i am grieving the loss of not be able to see my dad.  They don't talk to me and haven't for 7 yrs.  It's also grieving the loss of my childhood of what happened to me as a child.  i don't have any childhood phjotos, my mum refuses to give some to me.  so i have nothing from my childhood; no family photos, no nothing. it's sad and is very painful to have nothing.  i feel like a nobody 😞

It's grieving the loss of a close relationship with my parents.  I don't want to make contact with my mum as she is controlling and manipulative but i can't see my dad because of my mum.  It's difficult, it hurts so much. i could go on but for now i think i better stop. It hurts @Former-Member.  think i need a hug 😞

[Former-Member]

firstly big hugs and lots of them @BlueBay

[Zoe7]

I'm here hugging you too @BlueBay 

[Former-Member]

if it makes you feel any better my dad doesnt want any contact with me and wants nothing to do with me and is in denial that im even his and he left my mum when he found out she was pregnant so ive never even met him.

what happened in your childhood, you dont have to answer that..

you are definently not a nobody @BlueBay you are a very kind and caring wel respected member of the fourms community and as a human being in general.

i know it hurts but know your not alone in this ok we are right here with you and supporting you all the way

[Former-Member]

still there @BlueBay? you ok?

[BlueBay]

Sorry @Former-Member
Can I chat with you tomorrow afternoon. I'm feeling exhausted and think I'll go to bed soon. I will explain what happened to me. I think I did write my story when I first came on. I'll see if I can find it tomorrow.
Sleep well ❤❤❤

[Former-Member]

of course @BlueBay

sleep well and we will be here when your ready

[Owlunar]

@Former-Member@BlueBay

Yes - that one where no one thinks about dinner until mother gets home is a mouldy-oldy - alas

I used to put a roast in the oven on a Saturday after being up since early shopping and cooking etc and I would prepare the vegies and tell my then-h

"Please put the vegies in the oven when the timer goes off - and - if you don't - I might just spit in your gravy"

Actually - I can't remember whether I ever did that or not

Dec - gotcha back girls

[Zoe7]

Sleep well @BlueBay Thinking of you 

[Former-Member]

haha lol that might work lol @Owlunar