My Hospital Stay

[Owlunar]

I have had a couple of sessions like that with Centrelink - @utopia - no need to tell you the details - I won but sticking to my end of the puzzle - wow - the government is quick to take our money in all sorts of ways but finds it hard to give back

Wow - talk about a rock and a hard place!!!!!

But - when I first tried to get a taxi card I was rejected twice - I rang and asked why - the trouble - I had written that I had a back injury - not a spinal injury. The difference is magnificent.

I really hope they see sense soon - as if you are doing all this to pass the time

Dec

[utopia]

Am exhausted. Over something that could have been avoided and didn't need to happen. Thanks everyone. I'm going to sleep my mood away

[utopia]

My mood improved upon waking - a little anyway. And I managed to get a lift to an AA meeting in a nearby town tonight. Was great to have some people attend from a local drug rehab Centre. It just solidified that I'm on the right track. Day 66 & still going.
I truly hope that others are also able to stay on the program and off alcohol and drugs.
There is a lot of pain that people are carrying.
I see alot of similarities between fighting to stay sober - with fighting for good mental health. In some ways - it feels like a double whammy to have to deal with both issues.
On the other hand - working on one issue - helps the second issue.
Feeling alot more positive tonight.

[Owlunar]

Wow @utopia

66 days and still going - that is fantastic - you deserve a medal - I wonder if I can find one

Yes - I have called this Utopia's Medal and it will get bigger as time goes on - that is hard yards and I am proud of you - not having any idea of how hard this has been for you - but knowing there has been a lot of pain with all of that

And you are right - it is a double whammy coming off the alcohol and managing your MI issues - it's hardly fair but you are right - there are a lot of people with pain of all sorts and conditions - and then add to your double whammy - Centrelink and Work Cover

You may not see it yourself but from my lounge room you look pretty worn-out and somehow glorious - I am proud to know you - 66 days

Dec 

[Sahara]

@utopia, 66 day free of alcohol is an amazing effort., it shows how strong you really are. You are amazing. 

The most I have ever gone without alcohol is around 30 days; that is snce I was 18 years old. Thirty days in amost thirty years! Not great. 

I don't know if I will ever give it up. 

It's interesting how MI issues and substance use/abuse go hand in hand, isn't it? I am absolutely sure that my drinking is related to anxiety and always has been. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

WTG @utopia ...... so proud of you ..... ❣️

That's awesome and inspirational ..... 🤗💐💕

[utopia]

Thanks @Owlunar @Faith-and-Hope.
@Sahara. Yes drug and alcohol use seem to be common among people living with MI.
I know for me - numbing my feelings - or wanting to feel good - led to my drinking. But Idon't just have one or two. I have more. And I don't end up feeling good or numbing my feelings. I end up feeling guilty for drinking so much again. For leaving my son to fend for himself - while I sleep. Wasting what little money I have - on booze. And it so messes with my depression. The anti depressants don't work when I drink. My sleep pattern is all over the place. Too drunk to cook dinner. Too depressed to care about cooking dinner. The depression feeds the alcohol feeds the depression. It's an awful cycle to be on.
One day at a time. One moment at a time.

[Faith-and-Hope]

💜🌷 @utopia .....

[Zoe7]

@utopia 

[utopia]

Thanks @Owlunar.