My Hospital Stay

[Faith-and-Hope]

❤️💕🤗 ....... @utopia

[outlander]

Big hugs @utopia 💟 💟

[Former-Member]

Morning nature pic @utopia. I hope you get good news today. 

[Former-Member]

@utopia 💕

[Change123]

Hi @utopia

Apologies I didnt realise you were still in hospital -was so self absorbed last week or so with hormone crap.

I love australian native plants we have turned our garden into just natives (apart from fruit trees, veges and herbs) infact we try to stay local to the area so we can attrract all the native birds and other fauna (lizards etc).

I love the tea tree beautiful when in flower but unfortunately doesnt grow well in my area, the longest they have lasted is about 2 years.

Just for you and thinking of you. 

[oceangirl]

Hi @utopia

thinking of you 

[Former-Member]

thinking of you @utopia hope you're ok,

lj

[oceangirl]

Hi @Former-Member

How are you?

What have you been up to today?

How long before the school term finishes?

[Former-Member]

Hi @oceangirl

im ... tired in so many many ways.

its only week 2 of term this week here, so... end of term is a life time away lol.

How are you doing?

[utopia]

Day 6 or 7 (can't remember).
Yet again woke up with my psychiatrist sitting at the end of my bed. He said he hadn't heard from Workcover. Then he checked his emails and realised he made a spelling mistake in the email address for Workcover yesterday - so they never received it. So he wrote a new one. Then rang my case manager there to confirm they received this one. He actually had the ph on speaker so I could hear. He asked for my extension. She said it was being reviewed. He asked if she could approve just a temporary 2 day stay -- while Worksafe approve my longer stay. She said no. My psychiatrist kept trying toget her to help - but no luck. It seems to be hhappening to others who are on Workcover in this hospital. I'm wondering if Worksafe - who does the approval process - have tightened their policies to try to reduce the time of stay patients can have.
Just after 10.30 this morning my psychiatrist rang me (he couldn't find me - I was in the smoko courtyard - the social hub of the hospital). All he said was - they judt approved my stay until next Monday.
Well I broke down in tears. 2 other patients gave me supportive hugs. It was just such a relief to hear I could stay - after being in here without any cover for the last 2 days. It was also a big release of such intense emotions. Think I cried for half an hr. I kept saying "but I'm happy".
Did need to take a prn to calm me a little after that.
I went to one group today. Was different from the other groups they run. This was a support group for anxiety and depression. The psychologist acts more as a fascilitator. So it's us patients talking about our emotions.
@Former-Member - I did have not quite an AHA moment - but a small glimmer of light.
I explained that Workcover Centrelink, my ex employer, my lawyers etc - can all trigger in me a relapse in my moods - where I now feel I'm back to square one.
One patient asked why I was still choosing to fight them (my ex employer and workcover).
I said I want them to pay for what they have done to me.
And I want new legislation drawn up that clearly spells out the responsibility of Workplaces to protect the mental health of their staff.
I was asked why again.
I said all my life I have had a passion, a drive, to protect the vulnerable, those being mistreated.
Then the Fascilitator asked - is it worth the constant damage to my mental health? And is there another way I can fight or be an advocate for Mental Health - that won't harm me - & maybe someone 'stronger' or not living with mental health could fight the harder fight.
Well bugger me.
It made sense. A lot of sense.
People / organisations don't or won't react the way we want or expect them to. If we (me) keep expecting their core values and morals to be the same as mine - then I will keep being disappointed and hurt.
It sounds right.
It sounds like a good form of self care.
I still have this desire to see my ex employer pay for what they did to me & to prevent them from doing it to others in the future.
So I'm going to have to really think seriously about this. And maybe talk through the pros and cons a bit more.
So even though the tears poured out and the pain was intense - there was a slight glimmer of light in the distance.
This is the first time since I arrived at hospital last Friday, that I feel that there is a chance for me to get better.
It's still in the distance, but it is there.
I am beyond exhausted, emotionally and physically today due to these intense emotions. So I'll go to sleep now.
Thank you for all your special wishes and beautiful images.
My hope is that everyone gets a restful sleep tonight and wakes up refreshed tomorrow with ectra energy to face their day.
Big hugs. ♥♥♥♥♥♡