Life can be a Pain

[Appleblossom]

@Zoe7 

I have settled and you and the forum helped. 

Also me not pushing myself to extremes.  I am sad, but not in a dangerous mental space any more.  My son is in his room all the time, has not talked about his time with dad, which I knew to expect, but it is still sad.  Probably better than opening up my old wounds.

We arent eating together. I am facing that he is not well and that we both need kid glove approach. Making a Russian salad today. Just keeping healthy food available so he does not blow all his money getting take away.  I have promised him that I would check him every 24 hours if he does not come out.  Just put light sheet over him instead of blanket.  He is up all night, like when I first joined the forum, but this time I am trying to keep day/night routine, though I am influenced.  He is good at being quiet.  Its not like it used to be when he took advantage at my end of the house.  He does not play piano loudly next to my bedroom anymore.  But I ache that he struggles so much, and that it reduces his life opportunities.

[Zoe7]

It seems like you are doing everything you can to care for him bt also give him that space @Appleblossom - you know your situation best and know what is needed - in saying that I can also hear how hard it is on you. Your children are always your children no matter what is going on for you or them and yu will worry so much for them. Hopefully he can get through this and begin to socialise a bit more again. You need to keep doing what you are doing to get through and if that means talking here then unload away Apple. Only too happy to support you through this Hon 

[Owlunar]

@Appleblossom

I really love that owl- that is a beauty - I think I will put that one up as my wall paper and enjoy it every day

I love owls - there is something about them - yet - they are predators and therefore clever because of the way of nature - but those big eyes enhanced by their feathers

Thanks Apple - I must take the time to hunt around the internet for more owls - there aren't owls near where I live but maybe 2 miles away there are the trees owls love to live in - I have lived around this area for 45 years - maybe I have already seen them there - I really don't remember - 

Dec

[Owlunar]

Look what I found @Appleblossom

I didn't invent this but I wish I had

Dec

[Appleblossom]

You have given me a smile. @Owlunar Utterly gorgeous.  My fave fruit.

[Owlunar]

I have to see a doctor twice a week for an injection and today I have to see a doctor I haven't seen before

I don't like this - I get asked so many questions I feel uncomfortable - actually I really hate it

My whole situation is well monitored - I see the same doctors and get my medication at the same pharmacist and I go to a pain clinic and my whole medication regime is authorised

But when I see a new doctor I have to go through it all again and yes - I have already tried most things and really not prepared to go and start something new because my spinal pain is pretty stable right now and why interfer when something is working? Why stir things up again

Just like so many other people I wish this was not happening but it is and I have been through and through it so many times it's really tired. 

My own doctor is satisfied with the way I am handling it

As I said - I really do not like seeing a different doctor and going through the whole thing again

Dec

@utopia@BlueBay@Appleblossom@Zoe7@Shaz51@outlander@Sophia1@Razzle

[Appleblossom]

My son is reading 

"The Shock of the New"

Totally get why doctors are not as replacement as some presume ..

Hope it goes alright.

[Owlunar]

Thanks @Appleblossom

Everyone is entitled to go on holiday - which is what my doctor has done - taking a break that he needs - I think he deserves it

This new doctor at the clinic seems to be a nice person - I have seen him about while I have been waiting and I think I actually spoke to him oncew - I am there twice a week so I must be visible - 

Every so often I have to go through a different doctor - and some have an attitude to the medication I am authrised to take - two of the doctors at my clinic are impossibe to deal with - for me anyway - and they are entitled to have their opinion

But so am I - I feel a sense of being on the wrong side of the issue yet I am the one who has been through the whole issue - know what I am talking about? Of course - you have been too

"The Shock of the New" - totally get that

Dec 

[Shaz51]

But when I see a new doctor I have to go through it all again-- sending you knowing hugs @Owlunar

I have been through it soo many times and I think this is why Mr shaz does not want to get help and support

[Owlunar]

I sort of understand that @Shaz51

But I would be in a place place physically if I didn't have my medication - so I go through this over and over again - and it can be hard to break in a new doctor

Thanks Shaz - 

Dec