Life can be a Pain

[Owlunar]

HI @outlander@Former-Member

I am glad the cat has had her claws clipped - much safer for me - those claws were super-sharp - if she was asleep on my lap I was always alert to her jumping off suddenly and I have to be ready to hoist her away before the claws go in - oh yeah.

And she is a small cat and for a while people were commenting on her skinny appearance - and she was going to the vet every couple of months for a weigh in - and this time it is the first time she has gained weight for over a year - so I am relieved about that

I have had a drippy nose for a couple of weeks - I think I have an allergy - I can take something to dry it up and it works for a few hours - but starts again - I think it's the cold - I am feeling cold today - this unit gets cold but it's the only thing wrong with it - I like this place too much to move because I get too cold for a few weeks in winter

Right now my biggest gripe is the small planes at the local airport - they fly over one after another - in fact there might be several in the sky at once and I usually don't notice - maybe I am not really well but the drippy nose is the only symptom - enough of that

This cleaner is a good one - she makes the house look so good I don't want to spoil it but yes - I do live here and dishes happen

Time I had a bread roll and a coffee -

Dec

[outlander]

Lets hope its an allergy @Owlunar

[Shaz51]

 I think Shaz has the flu - so sorry about that - you are in a hight risk category I believe so that is not easy at all-- Yes @Owlunar, I will have to tell myself that it will happen all the time now

Thank you @outlander, @Former-Member, @Owlunar 

 it is sooo good having a good cleaner -- my customers tell me

[Former-Member]

Hi @Dec, wwhatch ya doing tonight? Glad you had some good home help and the place is tidy. I cleaned up for my visitors on the weekend - its so much nicer tidy. Think there's rain on the way, set off arthritic joints it feels - ouchy, but you know all about that. Have a heatpack on back atm. Dog warming my knees. Watching an oldfavourite *next of kin" (gosh liam neesen is a hunk - didn't realises he waste Irish origin. Those blue eyes. Dream on. Anyway, just popping by to say hi 🙂 

Hi everyone else ❤❤❤

[Owlunar]

Hi @Former-Member

It's Sunday by now and I am up and it's cloudy and I have arthritis too

I have the heater on low but I think I should turn it off but then - I have got chilled a few times lately and I get major pain then

This time of year it hard - I have always found winter hard - all my life - and I tend to feel better after the winter solstice and we have one month to go today - so that is a good thing -

But my son was in prison years ago - and my memories during that time have blurred and I can't remember exactly when whatever happened but the events are etched in my memory and i have had it fairly easy so far this year but it is catching up with me -

There is no way past my memories but to live through them - no matter how fast I run or how far I go I find I have the memories - and they are hard memories and there are so many -

Still I think I am doing better as the years pass - I have been doing better since I found this website

So I thought I would take my grang-daughter for a cruise - I don't know if she will be in it but I will go away for a few weeks anyway

However - I did look up some cruises on the internet and now i have the adverts everytime I look at any kind of site - the vultures circle if we indicate some kind of interest

So anyway - I am intact today soooooooooo

But I am leaving that for now because I am on the internet

Dec

[outlander]

@Owlunar
How are you today?

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander

I am a slow starter today - but I feel okay - just tired

Yesterday turned into a nightmare in a blink of an eye - one phone call - my pain specialist can't see me this week - she has been ill and has a meeting on Tnursday and I am so tired of people having meetings and are therefore unavailable

The think that freaks me out is my permit - I saw my GP in the afternoon and he said that as I was stable there was no problem with the permit as long as I see the specialist once a year - and that year is months away yet - and if needs be she could authorize it over the phone - but it hasn't come to that yet

Of course she might retire - I have had that one pushed at me - and my medication is working for me now - but the pain clinic is trying to get me to see another doctor and right now it's a case of "If it's not broken why fix it" and I had a terrible day - ooooh - did I ever

I have even had it suggested I could go into Aged Care and I am not prepared to do that - I think there are worse things but I am not ready for that - I can imagine myself becoming depressed there - I would not fit in - it's not for me at all

So - after speaking with my GP I did feel better but for a few hours I felt really anxious -

I undderstand how you feel when you are feeling bad - truly - when things get to me I want them fixed NOW - not when it suits someone else - and I have had my share of hurry-up-and-wait too

But today - in spite of a late start and a damp and gloomy morning I think I am okay

Dec

[Former-Member]

Hi @Owlunar, are you "intact" today?
Sorry for this delayed reply, don't know how I missed it. How is your "major pain" today (0-10) Is it the arthritis or an injury? Must be hard to stay active.

You said you got "chilled lately" affecting the pain. I have one of those electric blanket throw rug things instead of a heater. Bit bulky but affective. Gotta keep my knees warm so crouched a knee rug that works good.

Sorry, I'm having a d'javou I've written this before - sorry if I have.

This time of year it hard - I see you on the SAD thread. Maybe we can look after each other this winter. I cant believe the winter solstice is only one month away. How does that affect you?

So sorry you had such a horrible time raising your son, then going to prison and taking his life. Just aweful. These things leave deep scars that alter function for life. I know. Your memories may have have blurred but the feelings are still strong. Heart memory. You said "it is catching up with me" - remember to talk here. Glad you have this thread.
I hear you "There is no way past my memories but to live through them - no matter how fast I run or how far I go I find I have the memories - and they are hard memories and there are so many"
I hear you Dec, this is still very hard for you, but glad youre "doing better as the years pass" - gives me hope. Its only a few years for me, but yes, time helps and test, these forums have helped me too, talking with people like you, reading life journey of others... We can say things here we wouldn't dare in real life. I've been following / reading the forums a year of do now. The carers side have helped me cope with my brother (Sz) a lot.

Hope your GD does go away with you on a trip. Many wouldn't. Young people can be selfish. I'd go away more if I had company. Do post your trip so I can go with you in a cyber world at least 🙂

Well my friend, think I better move on, finish here and get IP - do something. Beautiful day outside. You have a good afternoon. Cheers 💜💕

[outlander]

your entitled to be a slow starter @Owlunar

oh dear thats not quite what you needed now is it
your permit..? not sure what you mean by that unless its the disabled parking permit?
Oooh I really dont like that- if its not broken then why fix it- just because its not broken doesnt mean its not painful.
Arrhh whats your gp going to do about your medications until you see another one?

Aww I dont hink your quite ready for aged care either- as ong as your still abe to do most things yourself then I think your fine- another option is to get a home visit from nurses if need be.. just as another option

yeah I still get the anxious few hours afterwards everytime I see my gp or my nurse for that matter

its really terrible when you cant get things fixed right this seconds either is it... its not the fact that its putting me second but its the fact that I would rather get things sorted before they get worse or its that wait- those thoughts and emotions that dredge up during the wait for something to happen- preferably good

im glad your feeling just abit better- I bet the cold is getting to you abit though- make sure you stay warm

[outlander]