Life can be a Pain

[Owlunar]

@Emelia8 

Great to see you Em - and thanks

I know you have been having a really rough time - and I am sure I don't know all of it.

Life can throw us really hard curved balls at times

All my love

Owlunar

[Owlunar]

Thanks @Peregrinefalcon 

[Shaz51]

Hello @Emelia8 🥰

No kidney transplant yet @Owlunar , just on the list for a fistula to go on the dialysis in the future 

I now have Osteoporosis and osteoarthritis to go with everything 

Last year I lost 2 aunties and 1 uncle ( sorry)

My mum is in permanent residential age care part of our local hospital now as her house is not suitable anymore and she needs more assistance 

Mr shaz has  regular ups and downs 

[Zoe7]

Oh @Owlunar It is so great to have you back 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

[Owlunar]

Hi @Zoe7 

I have missed so much - it wasn't until recently that I logged in to the site I had left without leaving any message and read what people had written here when I suddenly disappeared - which I had to do.

I am not really good or easy about sharing the hard parts of my life - I can say some things but not all - and last year there was plenty of it. 

So I don't know how you are or how you have been faring - I was thinking of you when I was in the Tower at Wrest Point - all my cousins went home the day after the funeral which was the day I arrived - we had dinner in the revolving restaurant - and although we all went back to our rooms before they threw us out I went on enjoying that party alone all night. And my cousins all went home the next day and the weather was really bad - heavy rain and storms at the beginning of May which I am sure you experienced too. 

Still, this wasn't a holiday but rather family business and staying at Wrest Point meant there was plenty of places to visit and I walked around outside when the rain stopped and soaked my shoes - I need news ones anyhow. I didn't have a bad time - it was just the time of my life which every event I experience is. I had a long conversation with my uncle's minister while I was there. I usually find there is something really special in every life package I receive, and this was true this time.  

I'm glad to be back and look forward to catching up with other people and how they are faring

Owlunar

[outlander]

so good to see you @Owlunar

[Zoe7]

Unfortunately I also suffered several losses last year @Owlunar so I can fully understand that need for space and to let the grief takes it's own time. I am so glad you made it to the funeral ...in that respect we swapped cities - I also travelled to Melbourne for a funeral and I am so glad I made it. My sister paid for me to go as I could not afford it so I am eternally grateful to her for that. I did not stay - went over and back on the same day then a week later my cousin died (suicide) and that was the final straw. I had 2 weeks off work - which my Ass. Principal fully supported (Principal was away at the time but supported me also when she was back). I was only going to have a week but it was not enough (my Ass. Princ. did not expect me back in a week so she was not surprised I needed longer). Also been having long term tooth and pain issues but hopefully that is all starting to resolve. 

Whatever the time and for how long you are away Hon, you are always thought of 💖 I absolutely love your new name btw and feel very privileged that you kept your picture 💖

[Owlunar]

Hi @Zoe7 

It's so good to catch up - I missed so many people

I am so sorry you have had multiple bereavements. And you lost a cousin to suicide. That is so close and hurts so much - I lost one of my cousins to suicide also - and for his funeral I flew to Hobart and back on the same day.That is a huge effort but something we do for people we love. And we would do it again. I am so glad you had the support of your principals. You really needed that time out and I know you are dedicated to your work. And it will still take time. I am sending my healing thoughts.

I really knew I would always keep my owl in the moon avatar. When I spoke to the moderators about returning - and letting them know I needed help - they suggested I change my identity - I kept my profile and esp that picture because it is precious, and I am sure you remember asking me to give a name to the owl I photographed when I saw it outside on the power lines into my unit. I also wanted to continue with my story on this thread.

And I am glad you appreciate this - and the name. Actually - I think it really suits me

Again - I am sending my heartfelt thoughts - what a bad year we both had

Owlunar

[Zoe7]

Yes such a bad year for us both @Owlunar 😥 It has been incredibly hard but we are both survivors hey 💖

I do love your name and I do remember the time you photographed the owl on the power lines. We have shared some amazing times over the years - and some not so good ones as well - but your support over time has meant so much to me ...loooove having you back and appreciate every moment you can be here with us 💖💖💖

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander 

It's great to see you again too. I have read a little about you during the time I have had time out - I know life hasn't been kind to you - I still have to catch up with a lot of things

All the best

Owlunar