Am Not Coping

[Shaz51]

and loving it my sister @Zoe7 and @Faith-and-Hope 

[Zoe7]

Hi @Pepsimax 

Hiya my sister @Shaz51 

[Shaz51]

how are you my sister @Zoe7 xx

[Zoe7]

I am still tired my sister but a little more 'awake' than I have been @Shaz51. I haven't fallen asleep during the day today. I did have to go out to get my meds from the chemist so I left that until after I took my midday meds - I think that helped as that is when I usually can't keep my eyes open - and of course I took Toby with me so that helped me stay more awake and alert too.

I still have a sore throat and am achey but my sniffles seem to have nearly gone.

How are you doing sister?

[Shaz51]

hope you feel even better tomorrow my sister @Zoe7

we worked this morning , but so tired at lunch so i had 2 hours sleep and mr shaz had a 4 hours sleep

going back to the doctor on wednesday , think i have sinus , and then the kidney specialist on thursday

[Pepsimax]

Hi again @Zoe7 @CheerBear @Shaz51 wish I felt positive I have had dinner and drunk enough so what's wrong with me

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @Pepsimax .... 💕

[Zoe7]

I have moved my reply here @utopia as I feel it is a better thread for what I am about to say...

@utopia I am going to tell you something here and then log off - probably for the rest of the night - so if anyone is wondering why I am not responding then you will know (and for @Faith-and-Hope and everyone else).

As soon as I read your second last sentence (on My Hospital Stay thread) I wanted to run - literally run - from the computer, my feelings, life. Before I say this I want you to know that you could not have foreseen that something so simple as a theme song from a tv show would affect anyone - and I don't want you feeling bad about this in any way - this is all ME.

When I got home after the very first time those two boys assaulted me when I was 9 - that show was on. It is one of the memories that I have always had - right throughout my life - I remember so clearly curling up on the chair by the heater on a cold Sunday afternoon and fixating on the tv screen - with Grizzly Adams on. 

Right now I am not doing well at all and I need to leave and try to get through this. I don't want to say anymore or interact with anyone for now - I need to be on my own. I will be safe - just need to be alone and try to let these waves crash over me. This is a very hard one to deal with...

[Faith-and-Hope]

💜 💜 💜 @Zie7 .....

[TheVorticon]

Glad to hear/read that you've been getting a bit of sleep with the meds and the cold/flu stuff is starting to clear up @Zoe7.

Take care tonight dealing with the trigger, and reach out for help if you need it.