I have moved my reply here @utopia as I feel it is a better thread for what I am about to say...
@utopia I am going to tell you something here and then log off - probably for the rest of the night - so if anyone is wondering why I am not responding then you will know (and for @Faith-and-Hope and everyone else).
As soon as I read your second last sentence (on My Hospital Stay thread) I wanted to run - literally run - from the computer, my feelings, life. Before I say this I want you to know that you could not have foreseen that something so simple as a theme song from a tv show would affect anyone - and I don't want you feeling bad about this in any way - this is all ME.
When I got home after the very first time those two boys assaulted me when I was 9 - that show was on. It is one of the memories that I have always had - right throughout my life - I remember so clearly curling up on the chair by the heater on a cold Sunday afternoon and fixating on the tv screen - with Grizzly Adams on.
Right now I am not doing well at all and I need to leave and try to get through this. I don't want to say anymore or interact with anyone for now - I need to be on my own. I will be safe - just need to be alone and try to let these waves crash over me. This is a very hard one to deal with...
