Am Not Coping

[Zoe7]

I have already taken some painkillers @BlueBay - they are taking the edge off the headache but it is still there - I would say it is a combination of the stress of the day as well as the crying this afternoon - so I think an early night for me is quite on the cards if I can sleep BB. I hope you get some sleep too my little yellow flower... and I am so proud of you for connecting on here in such a positive way today especially after having to go to hospital last night - it was wonderful to hear your feelings were validated - now to look forward to having little Ayla on Friday night 

[Zoe7]

@Shaz51 Zack is a cutie - such a smiley, happy face 

[Shaz51]

he is @Zoe7 and he is just want S3 needs

Hello my @BlueBay xxxxxx

Hello @Snowie, @oceangirl, @Maggie

[Zoe7]

Our fur babies are invaluable to us @Shaz51 - it can never be underestimated how important they are to us - I know mine are to me 

[Zoe7]

I'm not handling life very well tonight - I don't feel well and I think today has taken more out of me than I realised. I know that when I feel like this I begin to question my own safety - some days I just don't want to be here anymore and that is where my mind is heading tonight. I just want to sleep now.

[Snowie]

@Zoe7that like is hearing you hun.

GN1

[Zoe7]

I need to sleep to achieve that tonight @Snowie this is the most unsafe I have felt for some time - I know you get it 

[Snowie]

I know hun, I am hearing you. Seems like everything is against us, backed into that corner 

@Zoe7

[Faith-and-Hope]

❤️🦋 @Zoe7 ......

[Zoe7]

And the corner is very dark @Snowie  It is definitely one step forward and 2 back - it is not right that we feel like this - I don't want to do this anymore!