Am Not Coping

[utopia]

@Zoe7. Luckily all the other psychiatrsts Workcover sends me too have all agreed with the same/similar diagnosis - depression/anxiety & PTSD or Adjustment Disorder. This idiot decided to make me Bipolar II with a STRONG recommendation to go on mood stabalizer. Idiot.
My dad had undiagnosed PTSD from the Vietnam War. He was finally diagnosed after 20 years. By then I was an adult, my parents were divorced (thank god) & I was no longer living at home.
In my early years - pre teen - he was violent. Once I hit my teens - he would turn into a crying blubbering mess in the corner. That was far worse than the violence.
Hay. You're only the second person I've told that to. The first was to my old friend last year. Bugger I miss him. My old friend - NOT my dad. Lol

[Former-Member]

I was doing so good! I was actually my normal happy. Like the real me! It was amazing and then I went on a high got a good wardrobe now but I've just crashed. All I can hear is take your life thoughts. I'm home alone I got no one!!! I can't do this.

[Zoe7]

I feel really honoured @utopia  I can't imagine what the Vets have been through but the impact on families is also terrible. So many lives affected by violence (war and at home). The violence you can most often than not see coming - but the crying in the corner- that is really sad 

I know that no-one can replace your old friend but I am so pleased that you feel comfortable enough to talk to me about this 'stuff' - honoured and privileged my friend 

[Zoe7]

Hi @Former-Member We are here with you - you can do this - you are not alone!

Tell us what is happening for you.

Zoe

[Shaz51]

I agree @Appleblossom xx

There is only one amazing @Former-Member 

Hello @Zoe7, @Former-Member, @utopia, @Former-Member

[utopia]

@Zoe7. It's good to share that. It's not a negative for me. It simply is what is is. That was part of my childhood. So it makes it part of who I am now. Disregarding what the idiot psych thinks.
@Former-Member.
I'm sorry that after such a positive time, you are struggling now.
Please do whatever you can to shut down these negative words. It's your negative self just trying to bring a downer to your good day. Let's tell that talk - to piss off!

[utopia]

@Former-Member - what can I do to help you?

[Former-Member]

It won't stop

[Zoe7]

@Former-Member What won't stop? - the negative self talk, the feelings ...

[Former-Member]

Everything! Why the hell do I need to tell myself to live when I hate my life and who I am and my brain is just screaming at me to end it!