Dear @Emelia8
I am so very sorry to hear of more that you have to deal with now.
I am not going to tell you to stay. I know when I have myself become so worn out trying so hard to be supportive for others in real life and at times within the virtual world.
The guilt is so incredibly difficult in particular when we have been supporting a particular person for some time and can last for a few days.
At some stage reality sets in possibly once we start receiving the first session of support from a professional. A person who we do not need to try to support.
Knowing all the while, deep down, that those on here who have received your support so often would want only the best for you and for your health to improve.
I was pleased to hear your words that you are taking time out. I certainly will miss you but I want you to be better, not suffering as much as you are and for so long.
I want to be able to correspond with you when you have more comfort and less pain.
You need help so much after all that you have been through. Again I say for so many years of your life.
Physical pain exacerbates mental pain.
Mental pain exacerbates physical pain.
Grief, loss huge culprit of exacerbating physical and mental pain.
Warm comforting drinks. Warm heat packs, warm vegetable soup.
Sorry a few questions with some suggestions:
Did your physio send you back to doctor to get xrays, ct scan, MRI of back?
Do you have private health care?
As you live so far away to travel for MRI, I would definitely ask to be admitted the night before if MRI is to be in the morning or if MRI is in the afternoon, to be admitted that evening. You should not be driving anyway.
This I know as my neurosurgeon admitted me the night before I had my back operation; his decision not mine.
We live about 90 minutes away.
When I was told to see neurosurgeon urgently I rang the private hospital where I wanted to go. Asked them for neurosurgeons who operate there and then rang those rooms. Explained had been advised urgent. That was the saturday, I had an appointment on the Monday and an urgent MRI was organised by neurosurgeon. I also had to have urgent gp appointment in between. Also ask your doctor to organise report from physiotherapist. All to be forwarded to Neurosurgeon.
You have to be assertive to get past reception.
Neurosurgeons do have waiting lists but they do adjust them almost daily for new urgent cases.
The only way that they can determine the urgency is by seeing the results of the MRI.
If you can get as much information from physiotherapist and gp on referral once you have name of neurosurgeon and appointment time as in agreement that they will see you.
Basically I worked backwards which helped the neurosurgeon who is the one who will give you the answers and has the expertise around the spine area.
You need some help in organising this........Will your doctor and doctors rooms ring around and get all this sorted for you given the fact that doctor would know your history?
Again I am trying too hard to help you. (I know @appleblossom. I should be listening to you. This is our Emelia though.)
I read your despair between the lines and I would be on that phone now if you were in my real life not just my virtual one.
All too much for you to deal with on your own.
I do hope that I have not made you feel worse.
Sending you love and hugs and support in the only way I can virtually.
Love Sophia xx❤💚💜
