when is it time for hospital

[outlander]

i hope you got all your chores done today @Former-Member its great fun isnt it lol

aww your so cute and kind and caring in your words

thank you for the extra courage and also strengthening that net. i needed it

[outlander]

so the appointment went ok today. I really hope she can stick to what she says she will do.
She seems to have a good understanding of whats going on and she was gobsmacked how many therapists ive been to in only 8 months.

We discussed where id like to go from here and getting the details and everything as well. Though I didnt have to fully explain my home life she wanted my side of the story. So this session was pretty much the normal initial session which I dont mind. She explained how she works and ive made another session.

We both went through the boundaries that I want put in place and she said every one of those is reasonable. And if/when my mother asks about the sesssions to her she will be saying I think its best you ask outlander and then changing the subject. Unless I say to her but my mums stopping therapy now anyway she wrapping up next week for her last session.

Her 'homework' that shes givens me to do over two weeks is to make a lsit of all my triggers that ive identified so far and also list all of the coping strategies I have tried and how ive used them.

So not really that much done in the initial session but im hoping I can move forward now. She has said there will be times like when I disclose or give more information about certain events but shes not rushing into it. And its set at my pace.

@Shaz51@soul@Former-Member@Former-Member

[Former-Member]

That's good outlander,you were listened to,she did her job and provided a non threatening environmental for you which makes a difference .Gee list all the triggers! She'd have to give me til this time next year!Lol,or give me a truckload of bubblewrap,!She can't or shouldn't divulge any information due to ethics regards your rights to privacy and confidentiality.

Happy for you, didn't get for a walk,had upset stomach plus the depression had no interest in going .After washing my mother's and mine sheets and pillow cases and housework I went to bed and read a book and slept.Worried about myself outlander,I'm slipping away in the land of hopelessness.Hope this appointment gives you some hope for the future girl,good help is vital and so hard to get.👍

[outlander]

yeah i know tll me about it. so far the list is three pages long! and i havent finished them all yet. im too tired to think properly anyway @Former-Member

i hope your feeling abit better now. it mustve been the day for it casue i washed all the bedsheets in the house hold today too

do you wanna talk about whats making you drift into that land?

[Former-Member]

You're good,I hope you get your siblings to do their share outlander even though you are probably like me and rather do it yourself.In the morning I go and clean a house and the lady gets me to help her make her bed.I fail to see why she needs me to help her, she's capable of making her own bed,and it's easier if you do it yourself because you know how you want it.To me it's intimidating.

Everything has got me down,the impact of Friday with that tire bloke sending me abusive texts I know deepened my depression since,I'm supposed to have four jobs searched for centreline by the 12th,only found 1,first time I have had this problem all year,the girl at the disability job provider said not to worry about it but I do,it's just another failure and the fact that I don't deserve a life.I just can't see anyway out of this in a positive way.

I'm going to bed to read a book and only hope that there is still another chapter in my life.I hope you do after today outlander.💞

[soul]

So happy that the appointment today was a productive one for you @outlander. Three pages of triggers is a lot!

[outlander]

Oh @Former-Member
You poor bugger
Theres definitely another chapter in your life 💓💓
I really hope you enjoy reading your book

Yeah i know @soul theres soo many and thats not all of them 😞

[outlander]

Im feeling pretty eh
Its hard to desrcibe the mood though
Just eh

[soul]

eh - not meh @outlander?

[outlander]

I dont know @soul
Just eh meh bleh all those things