I dont know how much longer i can go on like this

[Former-Member]

Good Morning Claire @outlander 

You are right, I'm not entirely ok . . . I never am - but I'm alright; if that makes sense. I often feel like I'm lying to you when I say 'things will get better', in some cases I don't think it ever does - but it changes, everything changes. The longer you survive the more chance you have of tailoring your life experiences to your own preferences. I choose loneliness, I choose a flat-line life - it's the best of a bad bunch for me. I'm not real big on the forgiving and forgetting . . . and that includes me. I prefer to look at it as learning. I have never had a successful relationship of any kind, I could blame everyone else, but the only constant factor in all that . . . . is me. We, this planet and all it's life forms, are just a speck of stardust in the Universe - it is often how I proportionalize my own problems . . . they are nothing.

I don't know how much longer I can go on like this - but I have learnt that I can survive over half a century, I have learnt that I meant it when I said 'I will not give up'

Never give up Claire Everything changes 🙂

[outlander]

I cant even work 😞 i feel so insecure. Those people are here. 😞

[Former-Member]

@outlanderhold you head up high and ignore them. They are not worth it sis. Their opinion of you is not important. Remember SW you can do this.

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander

You are just so much better than those people

You have a right to your work place - and you are stronger than you think - so yes

Take an extra deep breath and exhale slowly and walk in and do your work

Work is honest - it's honourable - worthwhile - whatever it is

So remember this - you have a right to be here - you have a right to the space you have and you have the right to work

Please don't let these shallow, mindless creeps take over your life - 

I can promise you they have not been in a pile of damp tissues because of what they said - they probably don't even remember

So go Outlander - do what you are paid for and do it will

And all the best

Dec

[Sans911]

@outlander you ARE so worthwhile and deserve to live as much as anyone else. You've made a real difference to me, and continue to make a difference every contact we have, because you care so much about others, you are genuine, kind, intelligent and courageous.

@Owlunar is right, as she always is. They are creeps. And often people who put others down says more about their own insecurities than yours. You have someonething they admire. I know that still does make you feel better or help with your self esteem, but I hope you value what we have to say about you.

[outlander]

I have to go to my psychiatrist about medications now. Im only halfway through my work 😞 still have another paddock to clean and another bathtub to scrub.

Thanks ❣❣❣❣@sans911 @Former-Member @Owlunar its just ao friggin hard. I dont know how much longer i can just keep on keeping on. Im so tired of everything. My soul is tired

[Sans911]

@outlander hugs lil Sis. I have a GP and psychiatrist appts today too. I'll be back later today.

[outlander]

Thanks sis good luck at your appointments too @Sans911 ❤

[Former-Member]

Big hugs @outlander Am around most of today if you need to talk 

[outlander]

Thanks sis @Former-Member ❤❤


@Sans911 @Former-Member look up this song for me. Another memeber shared this song with me and id like to share it with you

Tell your heart to beat again i cant think of artist hold on