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17-08-2020 04:31 PM - edited 17-08-2020 05:29 PM
17-08-2020 04:31 PM - edited 17-08-2020 05:29 PM
Health anxiety - lost hope
Hello, I'm so glad I found this forum. Like everyone, I've had a really hard year. My father passsd away and then my younger sister was diagnosed with stomach cancer. She's receiving treatment and is so far doing well. My husband lost his job at the start of Covid and I was the sole breadwinner for our family of five (we have three teenagers). I had a really intense job but was good at it and loved it. I was stressed but coping. I can get anxious so being busy has always felt good for me. Then I unexpectedly lost my job due to Covid as well. Even with my husband unemployed, I did fine at first - I rolled with it, made some plans to network for contract work and wrote up a list of projects to do around the house. Luckily my husband then got a job. But with school going back and my husband working from an office (for an essential service) I found myself alone and all my plans just turned to dust. I feel unable to do anything. I cry most of the day. I'm terrified of everything. I have to have a routine mammogram this week and because I do have risk factors (dense breasts) I have convinced myself I have cancer like my sister but that mine is untreatable and without hope. The lack of hope has scared me the most. Does anyone else feel like this?
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17-08-2020 07:54 PM
17-08-2020 07:54 PM
Re: Health anxiety - lost hope
Hey @brolly, first off welcome to the forums I'm one of the moderators, just wanted to pop in and let you know that we're here to support. It sounds like you've got a lot on your plate, and you're not alone in feeling overwhelmed and lost at the moment. And if finding hope is a bit of a struggle for you at the moment, well I'm sending some extra your way
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17-08-2020 08:18 PM
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17-08-2020 08:21 PM
17-08-2020 08:21 PM
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Thank you - that is so kind
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17-08-2020 08:29 PM
17-08-2020 08:29 PM
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Thanks @bleepbloophello - and you really nailed it with the enforced structure. I feel like my brain is turning on me. I'm sorry you've also been out of work - hope something really satisfying turns up for you soon.
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17-08-2020 09:25 PM
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18-08-2020 05:08 AM
18-08-2020 05:08 AM
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@brolly Welcome.
Gosh, you’re had a lot of big stuff happen this year. I’m sorry your father passed away this your, grief is a difficult process to work through.
Also your sister ‘s cancer. That’s so much to be dealing with, and your own fears at the moment. I can understand the anxiety you are feeling regarding the mammogram coming up.
So so many people are affected by Coronavirus, it’s hard to know what to say. The effects are just enormous. I’m sorry work is yet another issue in your life.
Do you you have any professional support ?
Sending warm thoughts.
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18-08-2020 05:35 AM
18-08-2020 05:35 AM
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Thanks, @Maggie. I feel completely overwhelmed and the fear of cancer is that it would be another thing to cope with. I'm broken and have no positive outlook. I can't see how I would cope at all. I took myself to the GP last week - he's more concerned about me not going to the mammogram than the anxiety. He said it will go once I have the test. I'm taking my husband with me. He and my children are really concerned about me but I am ashamed at how badly I am handling things in front of them - and if I'm honest, I don't even know why they love me. I'm a mess.
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18-08-2020 05:38 AM
18-08-2020 05:38 AM
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I also felt like this when my mother passed away 10 years ago. So I have taken medication in the past and have started again. It's not working...
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18-08-2020 05:45 AM
18-08-2020 05:45 AM
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@brolly I’m pleased your husband is going with you. I’m also pleased to hear your gp is being supportive. If you need to see him before the mammogram, is that possible, just to talk things through.
Your family love you. Let them support you through this.
Take care.