General chit chat

[Faith-and-Hope]

🤗💕 @Mazarita @Former-Member ....

[Shaz51]

I did Yoga , and Jaz dancing when I was young @Mazarita

Did you tell your doctor that you had them out when you were 9 -- yes I did but I think i might go to another doctor as night time seems to be worse , i lay down and i start coughing and swallowing flum and it have to get up and have a cough lolliy

[Former-Member]

@Shaz51, I didn't think tonsils grew back, but Mazy has checked with the guru Google - so all I can think of is asking you Doctor? I've got a bit of a sore throat at the moment too, though not too bad and I'm taking vitamin supplements {I do all Winter} to help keep it at bay.

I'm good today Thank-you and hope your doing well despite the tonsils? In fact this is the first time in my life I'm actually thinking I'm feeling a bit too good {if there is any such thing}. Not that I'm complaining, but there's no real reason for it? But I'm going with it, not only did I tackle some dishes . .. but they're all done! I didn't expect to do that!

[Former-Member]

Hi Mazy 😄 @Mazarita

I did a bit of ballet when I was younger, don't remember very much of it and I didn't get very far (no toe shoes). What I do remember is pretty negitive actually, the Teacher was always poking at my belly telling me to hold it in and lose weight (huff . . . if she'd have seen me during my 20's and 30's!) + the first and only time I danced (with a group) in public I did one to many twirls (can't remember what they're called) and was devastatingly embarrassed by it!

I'm sorry to hear your still struggling with low energy, but I do understand and it's ok {well it's not ok . . . but it's alright} Don't ever feel you have to respond, or even press the like if your not up to it - I'll be thrilled when you do and I'll keep blurting at you even when your not 🙂 Thank you for your appreciation, it makes me feel very good that I can give you something positive 🙂

I'm feeling very good today and there's this little alarm bell trying to tinkle a ring I think, as I think I'm realizing it's not exactly normal - but I'm going with it, got all my dishes done! 🙂 🙂 and right now, feel a very strong determination I'm going to keep it that way! To be honest, I hope this lasts for a while!

Sending a bit of my unusual energy and good feelings 😄

Love you Mazy

[Former-Member]

Good night Mazy @Mazarita, Claire @outlander, @Shaz51, @Faith-and-Hope and everybody 🙂

The constant beeeeeep of my inverter, which is the alarm to tell me it's shut down, is very annoying. But hey, it got me through the night. Lucky this is a lap top and I still have it's battery power 🙂

I hope you all sleep well and the peace is with you

[outlander]

Good night Niqua
Sleep well 💓💓
@Former-Member 💚

[Faith-and-Hope]

Goodnight @Former-Member ..... 😴💕

[Former-Member]

Hello Mazy 😄 @Mazarita

Woo Hoo, we're 'on' at the same time again! 😄 😄

I can really relate to @Silenus last post too! Without specific details, it was like he was describing my life! I don't like males, but I have to say 'I like your mind Silenus' and think your a brilliant writer, it was your praise that made me decide to continue my story.

It was about 10 years ago that I reallly started battling myself, recogizing a very obvious problem. I finally was able to carry through my decision to stop abusing substances, at first it dawned on me that I was attempting to self-medicate, but now I see my young life was just another form of hiding - hiding from myself. In  my later years I have been able to look back and see how terribly bad my decisions were, but it was as if I had no choice. It's cruel when your own mind sabotages your own self! The 'line' make so much sense, I do my best to understand and there are many moments where 'A Ha' shines through, but there are many others, still to this day, that just make no sense.

I don't think I have an illness, perhaps a malfunction, but not really even that. I think I am individual as everybody is, but society is too closed and just not realistic about Human Beings. I don't think we are natural nor healthy, any of us. Any creature that can understand that it is destroying, not only it's own kind, but all life and even the very Planet that life depends upon, and continue doing so . . . there's something very wrong!

[Mazarita]

@Former-Member 

I relate especially to this line in your post:

I have been able to look back and see how terribly bad my decisions were, but it was as if I had no choice.

I too have made many bad decisions, hurtful decisions to myself and others. But when I imagine going back to those times, I know that, given the same mental distress, it would happen all over again. My inability to rely on myself is one of the most painful aspects of my illness.

Yes, I do call it an illness. And, like you, I too see our western society as being unnatural and unhealthy. But I'm not so fussed about the terminology because, whatever it's called, my personal condition prevents me from functioning as well as I would like, or being as decent a human being as I would like to be. I don't believe those who say everything in life is a choice and that it is all 'up to us'. Nor do I really believe that 'it's society's fault'. Somewhere between the two is me, this troubled individual trying to make it through this journey of life, in this time in history, in this place.

Well, now I've run out of steam on anything more to say! Lol. Mainly just wanted to write back to you this morning, since I've been missing in action a bit lately. Sending good vibes for the day. Mine is already looking a bit better than it was. Gotta laugh at yourself when you wake up and immediately feel panicked about boredom.

Thanks for being around this morning, Niqua. And to @Silenus too. You have both helped me rise a bit out of my morning blues. 

[Silenus]

Good morning (still... just...)

Hi @Mazarita and @Former-Member. 🙂

Just wanted to reach out and say thanks to you both. It's nice to connect. Hugs and happy vibes beaming to you.