Living with Ourselves

[outlander]

I cant see your pics as yet @Sophia1 bu will send some extra hugs. The gentle comforting ones to help you through your day ❤

[outlander]

@Sophia1 💖 💖 💖

[Sophia1]

Thank you @outlander

I am not surprised though..

you are so caring and thoughtful...

your responses are always so sincere...you truly are a treasure and I hope that should you choose to be.. you will be offered a position as a community guide...

someone without an agenda and a natural...

I had another scare and emergency visit to the specialist today...all resolved thankfully and many questions answered...

I am bracing myself for tomorrow as christmas day has not so good memories no different for many on here...

This year I am taking a different approach and am determined to enjoy with my husband and son....other family member hopefully will be able to catch up with when is right time for him...so be it..

I do hope that whatever you are doing...you enjoy...regardless of the expectations of others...You so deserve to...

So cheers for tomorrow dearest @outlander

Big hug xx💜

[Sophia1]

Dear @eudemonism

We have not conversed for some time now...

mostly my part due to operation again...and so on...

have not been on here that often...when have...responded to messages received..

have thought of you every single time...

I do sincerely hope that you are taking time out to self nurture...

You have spent so much time working through continuing thought patterns....

I feel that you have become more emotionally aware over that journey..

of course only you can feel any change in reading these words...

I am no expert...

I am a friend...one who cares and always will as I have said before...

Do not feel any pressure to respond...

I also hope that I do not exacerbate any intense feelings that you are experiencing...

I am not on here as often as am rehabilitating from another operation as well as the first one in late march this year...

I will check in every now and again..

I hope that you feel welcome on the forums still...you can write to whoever you please and about whatever within the guidelines of course...which is the same for all of us...

So a very Merry Tuesday for tomorrow and hope to hear from you when you yourself feel up to it...

Big hug 💜

ps hello to Mister...Purrpurr and Monti Python (still makes me laugh) xx

[outlander]

You are most welcome @Sophia1 anytime and thank you. Your a treasure yourself and your kind words are much appreciated.
Im sorry you had a scare but im glad its resolved now. Can make us abit rattled though even when things are ok. Ive got some scary things happening to but i will leave that for another day.

Christmas is a really tricky time for me too but like you im going to try and enjoy it as best i can and if i need to take it hr by hr and iknow youll do the same.
Big hugs to you and many blessings being sent your way
💜❤💚💙💗

[eudemonism]

@Sophia1 my main issues are dealing with the hurt and pain people have caused me. Plus dealing with my needs and wants vs my problems which hinder me.

[Former-Member]

Hey @Sophia1 not sure if you know/remember me. Thinking of you hoping you’re ok. Used to be Bella3 

had to disappear. Life became too hard     Long story 

Look forward to hearing from you.  💜

[Sophia1]

Hello @eudemonism

I am thinking that you are referring to continuous struggling with overwhelming thoughts from past events in your mind...

perhaps feeling that it will never end ...

perhaps also feeling that this constant battle in your mind hinders you from achieving all of your hard efforts at leading a life that you yearn for...

An unwell mind can be very soul destroying when we reach a point where we fear that there is no hope of climbing back out of...

For me this feeling comes within the deepest chasm of depression..

I find now for me....I need to think what will help me...aside from all of the other people in my life?

What do I want? What can I still do?

I can get up and move physically...just this very act is a shift within my body....body and mind being so entwined...

I can notice things externally rather than my internal thoughts and feelings...

Animals...nature are the greatest gift for me...

The old patterned thoughts still want to come back at another time...

I concentrate on the now not "another time"

The ocean ....it's changing colours....the sound and sight of the waves....the smell....the birdlife...human beings like stick insects in the distance...

all can serve to help return us back to earth....nature...a gift for each of us..

thinking of you....

big hug...

I will leave this here for you...a gift from me to you...💛💚💜💜💜

this is an image of a wave....I think wow when I look at it...

would love to have a huge image of this on my wall....what great mind travelling this could provide

[Sophia1]

I certainly do remember you under your former user name...

I have thought of you often ...

@Former-Member

Followed your banter with @TAB

am looking forward to reading about the upcoming dance event on new years eve...

Talk if you want to....read....post images...

what helps you the most....

now is your time to be held and supported...

as hard as this is for some of us to accept ..myself included...

we do actually matter even if we have not thought that way before....

you are doing all that you can at this time...

am so pleased that you are back here on the forums...

no matter whom you are conversing with or whichever thread you land on...

you are here and that is what matters...

Yes you matter ....

Sending you love and wrapping you in a strong hug...holding you...

I will not be here every day...just when I can...

I am here in spirit for my dear friends on the forum 💕💜💚💛💗❤🙀

[Shaz51]

hello @Sophia1, @Former-Member, @eudemonism, @outlander, @Exoplanet hugs for today , boxing day

raining and windy here