not feeling good

[Owlunar]

I am thinking of you @BlueBay

This is a dark day for you - perhaps a dark weekend

Moving at work must remind you that you will be moving your home soon - life is full of challenges and I know you just want some peace

I am up there on your shoulder too - I didn't know your place of work was shifting - ah - does it ever stop

Dec

[Zoe7]

@BlueBay Here's a little present to help get you through the day...

[utopia]

I won't be sitting on your shoulder @BlueBay. Only @Zoe7 can do that. A cocky weighs a lot more than a butterfly. Lol.
Every time you look outside and see a bird - that will be me or one of my cousins come to check on you. We wouldn't leave you on your own today.
Remember - minute by minute - hour by hour. At your lunch break, go outside and take a few deep breaths of that fresh air. See if you can taste the salt.
Sending you hugs. ♥♥

[Owlunar]

Hi @BlueBay

You asked "How do I repair my soul?" - I would love to answer that - @Former-Member wrote a good answer about God helping you to do that and I agree - but I think for a more practical answer it's what I wrote with my explanation - it is something to discuss with your psychologist - I am sure she has read Hillman on the subject.

Those bad dreams and the racing thoughts you have show you are in a state of change right now that is really hard for you - and I understand -

A few weeks ago my back was giving me a hard time with about as much pain as I could tolerate - a change in my medication helped but my feeling about the pain at the time was "It's hurting because it's hurting" - I think I had so my inflamation there every .little movement pinged and caused more pain

And so I think you are in a similar state because of your dreams and racing thoughts and generally tough time right now - so much is happening that you hurt because you hurt - as if you had inflamation of your thoughts - strange idea but things can hurt because they hurt

It will get better - I promise you - selling that house was a huge deal for you

Dec

[Former-Member]

Im sorry your struggling ao much @BlueBay.
It must be sttessful moving but think about all the new memories you can create there. Decorate differently even make a fresher start to the place....
A caterpillar soo ill be around. I can sit on your other shoulder if you like

[BlueBay]

@Zoe7 @utopia @Owlunar
I'm here on lunch break. My heart is racing so much to do. I'm so damn emotional. Thanks Zoe for teddy bear gift it's so nice. Gosh I can't think my head is going 100 miles an hour.
Taking deep breaths. I'm crashing big time with sleep deprived. Need my pillow and bed.

[Zoe7]

Go for a really quick walk @BlueBay - just to get the blood pumping a bit and to use up some of the adrenanlin built up through the anxiety. Then come back to me my friend and we'll work on getting you through the afternoon 

[BlueBay]

Not enough time @Zoe7 I only have 30 min break. Time up in 5 min.

[BlueBay]

Just closed my eyes for a minute.

[Zoe7]

Well that just really sucks then - bugger @BlueBay

Ok plan B - throw yourself into the packing if you can and use up some of that adrenalin that way. The hardest part for you is putting all those thoughts into the back of your nead and leaving them there for a while - you need to stay as busy as you can for the afternoon so your thoughts don't take over - can you do that BB. Then you can sleep when you get home. I will be with you all afternoon - on your shoulder - telling your thoughts to 'stay away'.

Zoe