not feeling good

[utopia]

You are doing everything right @BlueBay. This is about you and doing what you need.
Sweet dreams. I'll be here if you need me.♥♥

[BlueBay]

@utopia
I am bad atm. I can't even sleep. What is wrong with me lately. Don't know what to do anymore. So lost tonight.

[NikNik]

Goodnight @BlueBay
You know where to find us if you need anything at all.

Take care,
Nik

[BlueBay]

Maybe I shld just go. It's never too late. Memories scary abuse terrible. I don't want to see this anymore. I was s little girl. I have lost everything

[BlueBay]

I lost my childhood
I lost my innocence
I lost my dad
I lost everything
It's all my fault

[BlueBay]

Don't worry everyone
I've been alone before
It doesn't matter
Maybe I shld leave this Forum


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[Former-Member]

hey @BlueBay

seems quiet tonight, im sorry things are so tough. have you got your coping box with you? is there something that would help to ground you back to here and now? the intense feelings will pass, they have before, you can get through them again (even though its beyond awful)

be gentle on you,

here listening

[utopia]

@BlueBay. You have to switch this talk off.
Lie down on your bed. Lights off & simply breathe. You just need to breathe through this. Focus on the breath. Tell this negative talk to ... bugger off .... use your own words.
Tomorrow when you wake up - refreshed - call your daughter. Chat about the baby furniture sites you have looked at. I bet she's looked at some of the same sites. Lol.
Tomorrow, focus on the joy this little baby - I still see a little girl - is going to bring you. Imagine how she is going to have your husband wrapped around her little fingers. I can picture it.
Men are so different when they become Grandads. As will you. So tonight - think about the wonderful moment when you get to meet your grandbaby for the first time.
Sending you hugs.

[NikNik]

Hi @BlueBay you've had such a rough couple of nights.

I just dropped you a check in email to see if there's anything I can help out with tonight.

Please know that you are very deeply cared for here. I think @Former-Member is right in saying it's a little quiet here tonight.

Take care - here if you need anything.

[utopia]

@BlueBay. I'm off to listen to a relaxation ap. And then to sleep. I'll be going to my country/ mountain in my dreams. You are welcome to meet me there.
Breathe through it. It will soon pass. Thinking of you.