What 2020 was and what I want from 2021

[Owlunar]

It really seems as if you have done some good thinking @MDT  - clearing your mind of the irrelevent and annoying and finding your own feet is important and you have made notes

I think of what we write in this website as an interactive journal - we can give and gain insight with ourselves and other people - it's a brilliant idea actually

Ridding yourself of distractions - as far as possible - well done

Enjoying your own company and ridding yourself of what others think - and good old family guy Dr Phil always says that what other people think of us is none of our business - I so like that idea - well done again

Find your own space and trust the people you have already found trustworthy - good - and be trustworthy - feel trustworthy - terrific

And believe in your introverted nature - I can be extraverted but I am introverted too and I like it - when we are less concerned with other people we can enjoy the way we really are and put it to use

I am so glad to hear about your fruitful weekend - and work - yes - I guess someone has to do the mundane - and mundane can be less than inspiring - so you work on  your life away from it

That is all so interesting

Dec

[MDT]

Hey @Owlunar

Once again you make some astute points. I think I need to believe in my own nature more yeah. Patience as well. I said to my mum over the weekend or today I can't remember... that patience is something is I always think of. How much more patience do I need? How much more patience is required? How much more patience do I have to show or display? Questions like these..

Idk my friend. Its a weird road to be on. But its my road. And maybe that's just how it is.

You know when I was religious and went to church they used to say "be in the world but not of it" and I think I am going to start taking that approach to work "be at work but not in it"

The knowledge that i am trying is one thing to get courage from, but to feel it for real is another altogether

[Appleblossom]

@MDT 

It was a great post about aligning with your deeper self and establishing a base line you are comfortable with.  

Getting paid at one's credentials is not a given in today's society.  Education is pushed as the answer but its only part of it, there are less secure jobs.

Removing rose coloured glasses about human nature is somethng I need to do and develop a better sense of what to expect from others.  I never had the opportunity to talk to my mother about work, she was only interested in the money I brought home.  Sad but true.  Nor could I talk to her about school.  It is important as a young person to have that support.

Thanks for tag

Apple

[MDT]

Yeah @Appleblossom
I agree. Its hard and its not a given. I wish people understood that.

Today I had a bit of a problem when I saw people who are fresh out of high school now working next to me 😞

Doesn't help. But what I can do about it i have no idea.

[TAB]

Not your business plus not theirs re high school kids just take the money you might end up with no job if try to do something else. @MDT

[MDT]

Yeah @TAB
Tried to have some small talk. Went alright at least. Gotta count for something i guess. Then a weird exchange with someone. Idk old mate tabs.

Struggling but getting on by. Need a guitar to play a blues song maybe

[TAB]

not everyone wants to talk or might question your motives for 'talk' best to leave 'talk' just to work matters as much as possible esp if seems uncomfortable. Best to leave it. @MDT 

[Appleblossom]

Sometimes we need to practise Detachment and other times Connection.  None of it is a given, tho some say "of course" a lot .... 

[MDT]

People are woerd in my workplace
Thats all I can conclude.
Had a conversation with someone in the lfit I hadn't seen for some time

Now that I think of it I must have a reputation for just doing my job. Idk
Best not to dwell.

One step at a time

[Owlunar]

Patience and courage @MDT - these are so hard to define - and what wonderful questions

Courage is easier - I can say through my life my moments of courage have been the greatest when I have felt it the least. Like something we all face - dental work - I had to take myself into the city to the Dental Hospital for what turned out to be unsuccessful root canal work - scared every Tuesday for however long still I went alone - and on the last visit I was told it would have to have the tooth extracted - I went downstairs feeling ill and terrified. 

Being afraid and doing it - that's courage - and of course at the time - we can't feel it at all - and it's scary

But - then - back in the distant past when we could fly interstate I did so often - I met people even in business class who were afraid - I wasn't. I even took a helicopter out over the Great Barrier Reef - not a moment of worry - I was so excited.  Twice I have flown across Bass Strait in a small plane. That isn't courage at all - unless it's to grab a chance to be different and act on it.

Ah patience - I intend to lift your sentence - I like it so much

You wrote

that patience is something is I always think of. How much more patience do I need? How much more patience is required? How much more patience do I have to show or display? Questions like these..

I could strain my brain over these questions - and I think I will - I never thought about patience in those terms before, For now I will ask - if you are wondering how much more patience you need, how much more is required, how much to you have to show or display - it has become a strain on your spirit. Are you scratching the bottom of your collection of patience atm - at work? If you are - my thought today is that you have run out and need to think of something else.

I can run out of patience - and I did write a story about the Second Last Straw - which was published so I can't tell you the real title - I can tell you though that the second last straw is the most important one to notice. The last straw can rob you of your dignity - it has had the chance to rob me of mine. I have lived a few years more than you and had two children - the elder certainly drained me of patience so I learned so much.

Let me thing more about patience - I might get more interesting ideas

So - the solutions could be in being in the world or your job but not of them. It takes courage to be different but then - we are all unique. You have grown a lot since you first posted here Hamso - I remember your post but never responded to it - but I have a memory worth having. You were very insecure. 

In or unique capacity we all find the world we find ourselves in different in so many ways. A lot of people seems to blunder though life without much thought - which is okay for them. But we never let them stomp into our precious garden of unique ideas in their muddy boots. That is where patience stops I think - when thoughtless beings crush our pretty and unique plants

Whoops - I am often quite the philosopher - maybe I have plumbed the ideas of courage and certainly patience. I would love to know what you think - I really loved your post

Dec

Precious gardens of unique ideas