SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD)

[Kurra]

Hi @Former-Member
I was diagnosed with ankylosing spondilitis in my early teens. It's an uncomfortable condition but there are meds that can slow the progression of the disease and ease some of the pain.
My condition is now quite advanced and as a result a number of my joints have fused. I continue to remain as active as possible because exercise really does help.
I'm so sorry you have this condition because it really is challenging and hurts big time.
Thinking of you 🎶💕🎶

[Owlunar]

Hi @Kurra

Glad to see you again - I hope you have been well - this site is so big now it would be easy to miss people

I am sorry your joints are fusing - yes - I know ankolising spondidlysis is something that makes it necessary to keep moving around and this can be hard in cold weather

Have the best day you can

Dec💗💖💢

[Former-Member]

D E P R E S S E D !!!

[Former-Member]

Can't sleep, so lythargic lately, but mixed, don't know how come I suddenly just can't do anything for days, barely dragging myself out of bed. I just did an online bipolar test. Thought I answered conservatively. Nor sure what to do with it now, but this was the result

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[Former-Member]

Really struggle understanding bipolar criteria. The whole reason I did the test is because I feel so depressed at the moment, but ccasionally get 'on top of the world' (so many unfinished projects & budget blowouts). But mostly this depression the hardest to cope with. Or is it the ptsd swings? // Best not think about it too much. At least its nice to not have the active anxiety & SI so much - just sleeping life away. Feels like I'm gonna merge with the furniture and simply disappear, quietly. // Wonder if I'll be able to push against it this time? Before it gets too hard. Its like trying to get out from under a giant waterlogged doona, my muscles just aren't strong enough. 🌿

[Owlunar]

Hi @Former-Member

That quiz doesn't look like much fun - I am trying to think of something a doctor said on a TV show on SBS - about depression and the medical quiz we are given about qualifiying for Medicare visits to a psychologist

They all concentrate on the negative side of our emotions - or the depression or bi-polar or whatever quiz - and they are not good for us really - because they are not balanced

But yes - I get it - I have been told I have SAD by my pain specialist - and okay - it fits and I can have it - and I don't have it today - it's sunny and I have spent a week sorting out my tax documents and I had a dream last night about where I had filed some more and bingo - there were about 20 there - but I am not going to disentangle my folders until I get to the accountant this afternoon - 

I have felt better since I decided to see the accountant - I am an accountant but tax laws have changed - and I have no control over that - so let's get this over and done with. Not doing it was something that nagged at me - and I could not bear the thought of sorting those papers - but I have

So that's me - I have laughed and said often "I would join Procrastinators Anonymous" but I just can't get around to it" - the truth is that in the late autumn and winter I get moody and hate the short days

Maybe we can all hybernate for the winter - sleep as long as possible - I tend to be awake late at night - and then sleep in - but I do understand your post

Sopping, great doona - oh yes - I can just see that - I think mine gets like that now and again

Hugs though

Dec

[Former-Member]

Thanks @Owlunar, sometimes I wonder if its all a delusion and none of it matters anyway lol. I was still awake at 5am so just woke now, not gonna punish myself about that but need to work on some sleep hygiene. Inactivity clogging the arteries - gotta 'require more of myself'

Your tax documents. doesn't sound like fun but be good for you to get out of the way just the same. I don't know where to start with tax retirns, not done for nearly a decade, andvi have worked, bit of a worry. Can't seem to get my head around such things. Never been good with numbers.

You have a great day 🌷🌿

[Owlunar]

Hi @Former-Member

I wonder about life sometimes and wonder if it's an illusion - but I have a belief system that suggests otherwise and I think it's real - but some of us cope better with general disorder in life itself - maybe one of the reasons for life is settling disorder - it sorts us out - that's for sure

Anyway - one of my reason for my belief is a very simple one - I wanted to study medicine and I was certainly intelligent enough but Dad had two more kids to educate and insisted on me leaving school when I finished year 10 - which was pretty good for girls back then. Later in life he admitted I was his best bet on the Bright Kids Scale and had his regrets but I got my own education regardless and feel rather pleased with it all in spite of the first disappointment

I found work was not enough so I studied accountancy at night-school - and then - I worked in accounts most of the time - though when my kids were young and then when I was a university undergraduate I did all kinds of work - still

All through it I could always get work in accounts - and did - and earned more than my ex-h and did well - I liked it and had the right kind of mind for it. One of my uncles was an accountant also - and we inherit gifts and gain skills - so actually sorting out all these papers was a pain in my spine rather than my mind - and I just didn't want to

The lack of money can make people miserable - terribly so - but having it doesn't make us happy either - having enough is enough - but still at the end

Nothing is sure but death and taxes - that is so true

I hope you feel better today - it's sunny here - but pretty cold

Dec

[Former-Member]

Good onya @Owlunar, you're such a realist, and you make me smile. You have a good day too 💜💕🌷🌿☕

[Owlunar]

Hi @Former-Member

I have spent my life enjoying making things plain for people - actually I did a lot of private tutoring at university and got a teaching certificate at TAFe before I hurt my spine and was forced into early retirement

I have enjoyed my life really - perhaps I am a bit to clever at times

Yesterday a friend told me I am good at explaining - I should write a book but I am thinking - I could do that but what would I write about?

Ummmmmmmmmmm

Dec